hongking's Diaryland Diary



hm this always happens. tragedy strikes on a place tt i've been to a few years back. e.g. new york 911, and now this tsunami (i stayed at phuket patong beach). seeing all the helpless ppl dying, seeing ppl losing their loved ones, at a place where i once was. makes the disaster more real for me. hm this time it's really incredibly large in scale and its also sadder cos so many died prob bcos of a lack of awareness. sadder yes yet actually i'm quite desensitized already, even though i'm watching the news reports for just the 2nd day.

sg is just so special. i dun see her being vulnerable in any way to any natural disasters at all. good for her. maybe she has done well to prevent some (like flash floods). but sometimes i just wonder, why cant tragedy just strike singapore? maybe it can make singaporeans treasure life more, maybe it can make singaporeans more aware of how lucky we've been.

maybe, somehow, i just feel tt it's so unfair to so many countries. what makes sg so special. what gives us tt right to have extra protection from natural disasters and let us not have any unpredictable problems that gives us direct losses. we're always only facing the indirect impacts.

mm alright SARS. we contained it so well i kinda forgot it was quite a big thing. haha hm

10:08 p.m. - 2004-12-30



i've been employed as a full-time cleaner by the SAF at Tekong for e past few days. quite interesting actually but well it gets tiring. makes me appreciate cleanliness much more though.

it was really terrible actually. the moment i went in it was at 38.5�C so i was admitted into the sickbay which isnt a v pleasant place cos of the level of standard which is of course "outstanding". but i cheered myself up by looking at a photo / at other times imagining tt i was in japan. and i kept drinking and visiting the toilet cos i simply refused to let the medics put me on drips (from what i see/hear it takes at least 2 attempts b4 they find ur vein). i survived. and it was quite an achievement, seriously.

hm ok time for me to sleep!

12:50 a.m. - 2004-12-30



this qn is still nagging at me:
when will i be ready to grow up?

my life is too centred ard school b4 this. tt's y i'm lost.

i guess ppl just go on with their lives. so shall i.

6:09 p.m. - 2004-12-25



last night was hell. when u learn tt panadols cant do wonders: i maintained a temp of 39.5 to 39.0�C throughout the night. all the viruses must have been going thru the lytic cycle. plus lots of phlegm. but well it seems so long ago now tt my temp seems to have come back down. hopefully i'll be fine.

it's a weird christmas cos it seems like there isnt anybody much to celebrate it with (but i shall be happy with my family). there's a lack of activities. hm.

12:02 p.m. - 2004-12-25



actually suddenly i really feel so empty. hm.

3:50 p.m. - 2004-12-24



it feels absolutely weird to realize tt hm we r finally growing up. n everyone will go on his/her separate paths. no more common experiences probably. perhaps totally different lives. nobody will plan ur future for u. which is y i'm actually enjoying ns cos everyth's pretty much planned u just have try to do ur best and test ur will power.

i wonder. 2 years down the road how will interactions with friends be like? hmm. or even nxt march when we get our results. everyone wuld have done quite a bit by then.

sometimes my life feels rather aimless. like now. all i've to do is to follow instructions from ppl of higher ranks. not using my brain much. this is worse than watching tv. shall start thinking abt what i really want to do with my life while in ns.

1:46 p.m. - 2004-12-24



really sux to be sick actually now i have diarrhoea / vomitting along with my fever and sore throat. and i dun even know if it's cos of the antibiotic i took or it's part of the illness. shucks

1:32 p.m. - 2004-12-24



so i realized tt ns and home life (civilian life) are actually mutually exclusive things. in terms of everything: time, ppl, place, etc. i return home and i feel as though i was home just yesterday (though it's been 2 weeks).

it's just like the clock tt ppl use for a chess game. when u press the button one clock stops ticking while the other clock starts. the feeling is exactly like tt.

there is an abundance of vulgarities inside btw and hmm i used the f word once. haha. i shall keep the count at one. and the english is terrible and the worst part is i'm getting used to it. AND YOU HAVE TO WRITE IN BLOCK LETTERS and you're not supposed to touch the lines. haha.

i just hope tt i dun get sick too often. and yeah my sections mates are good. :)

9:53 a.m. - 2004-12-24



i am back. yup. tiring but nonetheless it was ok. 2 weeks passed just like tt. a bit difficult at first (esp e first day), needed to psycho myself into thinking yeah everyth's fine for the next few days, i.e. there were bouts of homesickness every now and then but eventually everyth's become normal. (met eric and sing yong so tt was good)

physically? it's tough on my upper body. luckily my legs are fine. if not i'll suffer more. but it's helping to make me stronger. great. and i'm trying my best. yest after the "OCS selection" thingie i was kinda angry w myself for giving up (my ab's really culdnt take it any more) but i thought abt it and it was really my best. gd too - trains our will power.

ns is definitely a gd experience. i've learnt quite a bit already though it's only 2 weeks. living with other ppl. mojo uma saleem wee keat hoi wang raymond clifford ching sung zakaria. it's fantastic actually. no joke. just a bit too much discipline but considering how little self discipline i usu have, yeah it's gd for me.

i am sick now but i will recover.

put on 3kg thanks to very short mealtimes and frequent meals. i get hungry v easily nowadays.

its 2 weeks but yeah tt's enough actually to summarize it (actually i forgot to bring my diary out). i will continue to enjoy it. i believe. e only thing is how much i will change n how much of myself i've to keep.

9:37 p.m. - 2004-12-23



i'll be in in an hour or more. slightly scary actually haha. :D cos i guess i really am not psychologically prepared. and still figuring out what is which part of the bag. hahha

7:10 a.m. - 2004-12-10



oh my goodness. i'm going in.

10:27 p.m. - 2004-12-09



had an interesting buffet dinner at "the rice place", somerset. indonesian food. mr ong, me, sy, ocs. they serve one of everything and then u can order more of whatever u want. but we din even finish the first serving *shakes head* wasted so much food.

went to e airport to send xuxu off. yup.

suddenly yest when mr ong mentioned the pyramid game, realized haha how many years have actually passed...

v disjointed thoughts i'm still doing my last minute work as usual. but i'll work on tt. wunt do things so last minute any more. (yar right. u can only say tt. u nver manage to do it)

9:52 a.m. - 2004-12-09



hm haha dun think what i wrote abt prom was enough. waking up with ur friends is particularly fun. and walking towards the merlion was fun too. and basically everything la :)

am quite glad i finally did it :)

today met ibo team jane goodall lecture. rather inspiring at first, esp the chimp call she imitated but after a while i got a bit sleepy (cos of my lack of sleep)

okie. b4 i know it. i'll be gone.

6:52 p.m. - 2004-12-07



yesterday was -not- fun hahaha i mean ok la is it meant to be? maybe not for me i guess. but it was nice cos i took quite a number of photos (i've to learn to smile. dun laugh). and there were the chats. and the visiting of the merlion twice hahaha walking there from marina. yeah. and a good breakfast i guess in the morning.

but it is sad. i dunno if/when i'll see them again. i'll definitely try to keep in touch with ppl hm but sometimes it's inevitable tt u'll lose contact with some as well. hm but i guess it's just a temporary phase. cos pri sch/sec sch were also like tt? guess so. live with it. [but then again it still hasnt hit me, and perhaps many others, that it's for real this time: ppl are going to disappear. they're not going to reappear anywhere near u after this holidays, when jan comes.]

the next major complaint, NS. it's really TOO soon. goodness. and much as i'm going to be optimistic it's still hmmm quite a big change i guess. psychologically i dun feel v prepared. yup.

next thing? i'm starting to prepare myself for failure i guess. failure to meet others' expectations of me. it's not so much a lack of confidence this time i feel tt i shud just be prepared so tt if indeed i fail i dun land so hard. yup

not a v bright future ahead

11:49 a.m. - 2004-12-06



hm nowadays it's so easy to fall asleep. suddenly. at ard 7+pm. i'll be eating my dinner halfway and then i can just put down my bowl and go to the sofa and my eyelids will be really heavy and b4 i know it my mum is trying to wake me up. *shakes head* sth wrong haha

8:28 p.m. - 2004-12-04



yanjie's hilarious; in his gp june hols slip of paper, he wrote: dialogues - as good as RIB food. hahahaha cos i just took back one whole stack of gp stuff from our letter rack.

i had so much fun today. not bcos i was doing anyth exciting (apart from digging this rather big hole on the beach at siloso beach). talked a bit, and the idea is to just laze around and not worry abt anything. felt soooo good. and u know even though i din have change of clothes i just dived into the sea anyway. tt "who-cares-abt-consequences" attitude tt i had at tt time. good. [and i culd be comfortable with the friends present as well :) ]

oh and we had dinner at noodle hut. and i liked the lanterns there v much. pity i din get to appreciate them heh

11:34 p.m. - 2004-12-03



music is really sth i can express myself with. neh dun want to sound like a gd musician cos actually im not one. but sometimes when i sing and dunno what i'm singing (i.e. i just let some notes flow), i can cry when i reach climaxes - or maybe it's the other way round when i'm thinking of sth tt makes me have some intense feeling i reach the climax in the music somehow. so yeah i guess composers get their inspiration from their emotions more than anyth else.

(sidenote haha: i cry rather easily if u havent seen me cry then well u havent really seen me. haha i guess all of 3f has then - tt time when even mrs lim stopped questioning me haha tt was quite powerful actually.)

11:38 p.m. - 2004-12-02



hmmm. quite a bit happening.

i've been to the Asian Civilisations Museum, the Art Museum (again - dun go now everything's closed). the former was rather interesting. mm both are housed in ancient buildings of some historical significance. and haha so is the PSC (the city hall - revelation!) haha.

i've had lots of fun really. to kinda neutralize tt sense of uncertainty tt i had with regards to my future. and hopefully tml the fun i have is without any worries. tt should mean i've to finish some essays today. mmhm.

xuxu - for lunch at S11 + digital cam!
grace - for museum trip to ACM!
honlyn - for ice-skating at orchard + lotsa food!

and will be meeting:
singyong/serene - for ? haha bowling i suppose and exchange of bday presents
ibo team - jane goodall lecture why not right?
class - sentosa tml, sunday prom, monday outing
sang - for cooking lessons. wait how to find the time?!? haha

and there are so many ppl i want to meet. really.
j1 chorale - swingle singers tonight! argh. cant go
wyf - damien in chiang mai but oh well i guess i'll be enlisted by the time he returns
justin - must meet la really dun even know how u look like now at least u can see my photos here hahaha
andrew - ok i promise i wunt forget u again ;)

my ailments! mostly gone. head has stopped spinning. either tt or i got used to it. pimples ard mole - mole NOT cancerous. great haha.

it's christmas! yeah. went to expo the other day and the atmosphere was great. a v nice garfield show which got me singing christmas carols aloud. "five apple pies ..... and a piping hot lasagna for u" and orchard's pretty christmasy as well i guess.

mm johns hopkins here i come!

2:48 p.m. - 2004-12-02



somehow i errr blog less when there's no school. *nods*

anyway ive been having fun so far i guess. and hm meeting ppl a bit. and sleeping. and eating. i love the prc scholars of our class they're a wonderful bunch. really. yanjie and his love for cats (u'd nver know how much he loves them till u see him stroking them), and tianjiao and his maps, qi qiong and her v******* (ok la and v v nice also she's giving me a replacement pencil box after drawing tt pig on mine), xu xu (basically her cheerfulness and new perspectives on things)

10:42 p.m. - 2004-11-29



hm so tt's really the end of schoool. seems rather abrupt really. one moment u were wishing tt u can quickly finish ur papers, and the next moment u realize tt u might just nver see the ppl u sat next to forever (esp PRCs). to me the 'A's seemed to happen so quickly, yet it still seems like ages ago since we did our pracs. interesting tt tt works isnt it. not really tt contradictory.

i miss lessons. n i guess tt's primarily bcos i know i'd nver have lessons like tt again. not as tt class. not in tt campus. the campus will be lost. to me, places where events have occurred are as important as the events themselves, cos it really really helps to bring back memories. nope, no more of tt. *rambling*

last night i started singing b4 i slept. i always sing when i feel lost perhaps. to revisit memories.
1999 - Ride e Chariot, Ecce quomodo moritus est, Miao jia yue, e Shower, Pasigin
2000 - e Reluctant dragon, e Mermaid, British tar
2001 - Hodie christus natus est, Usuli, Full fathom five
2002 - ABBA, My love dwelt in a northern land, Pat-a-pan, Agur janak
2003 - Redz kur jaja, Impressions!, Les fleurs, Just one of those things, Matona mia
2004 - Festival Sanctus, Pseudo Yoik, If I can help, Mamayog akun, Singapura medley, Barber of seville

trips (not too many actually)
chiang mai, sapporo, endau rompin, italy hm but full of memories

i'm feeling lost i think. loss of direction. doesnt help tt i'm enlisting so soon. not tt i mind going in, but it's gonna reorientate me when i'm disorientated. i.e. i'm gonna be totally remolded. cannot la need to find myself first.

hm why's everyone so happy anyway haha. hm. it's like i've finally reached the sea after going thru the meandering river. and u're not guided u just errrr drift along the shore or u swim towards the horizons. up to u. me? actually i cant decide as usual.

the idea of holidays. or end of exams. perhaps it's usu a good idea when u know tt it's a break from what u've been doing, but u'll return to it eventually. back to a routine. i like breaks from routines. but now. a clean break altogether?

i think i'd want to continue learning. good the edu system has worked. i cant imagine myself seeing a physics text nxt time and saying hahaha no more A lvl physics so dun need to mug. no more S so dun need to read more than enough. [tt i have these suggestions means tt i've thought tt way b4] but tt's really tragic and tt wuld be the ultimate evidence tt we learn only for exams. which. might be true? (tt's a v quick contradiction within errr 2 or 3 sentences. typical hk)

nvm. going for choir now.

8:54 a.m. - 2004-11-27



hm my 3rd grandaunt just passed away in macau. and my parents had a good time laughing abt who is who in the family (sadly i dun even know my immediate extended family v well i get confused since i dun really meet them much) but anyway my dad was like yar on his dad's side there's sth abt being odd and surviving cos his 2nd, 4th, 6th, 8th aunt/uncles have all died within the 1st few years after birth.

eh i just warmed up for the A lvls. like my pracs and first week were warm ups. (rather badly done) so my conclusion is pracs shud be after written papers. errr. but they dun need this suggestion any more so nvm.

4:00 p.m. - 2004-11-24



my aunt (paternal) was hospitalized today cos she collapsed while cooking breakfast. in her own words "i hanged, and then auto-rebooted." luckily she rebooted quickly enough, but she has to stay for a few days for observation cos it's not e first time apparently. dangerous la. *sigh* n sth happened to my grandma's (maternal) hand and she has to go for an op.

the most important thing tt u'll want in life is actually really a healthy body.

11:35 p.m. - 2004-11-22



i know tt i have to ignore the spinning no matter what. and so i did during biotech and when i rushed thru the essay (luckily i finished it) i ended up really spinning and spinning and spinning so much tt when they were collecting my paper i felt like i had infinite angular momentum. *shakes head*

urgh. hate this. need rest. anw meanwhile i'm so relieved. phew. xuxu scared me!

5:11 p.m. - 2004-11-22



argh. it is v irritating when ur brain believes itself and/or ur ears which arent working properly. goodness the room is NOT spinning! and i am NOT sinking! goodness.

4:15 p.m. - 2004-11-21



condition not v good. a bit like sec 4 when i had to go for the CT scan. there was nth diagnosed at tt time but now it's back. vertigo. unknown cause. arh how smart.

it feels like i'm experiencing brownian motion or sth. continuous random motion tt's e perfect description. *spin*

3:20 p.m. - 2004-11-21



goodness i need sleep...

2:12 a.m. - 2004-11-21



hahaha just went to delifrance for a late lunch + to study agri biotech. met jing jing (again during exam period haha!) at j8 so showed her some of the italy photos. and on the way back met kah hua in her car. i simply love meeting ppl like tt.

so i drank coffee (which i dun like but i decided to try anyway today) and i got a bit high while studying agri biotech. so tt's the secret. dun try doing it on ur bed ur eyes will be close within 5 minutes i assure u. ahahahaha (ok evidently i'm still a bit high)

oh and yeah confession: this is like the first time i'm reading thru the notes from top to bottom. found out abt lots of interesting things, and started wondering abt what exactly i was doing during lectures: (1) circling "Rome, Italy" on pg 14 (Int'l Plant Genetic Resources Institute) (2) underlining "Experimental Prototype City Of Tomorrow" (aeroponics) bcos i finally found out what EPCOT stands for (3) drawing a number of crosses and question marks all over the place

5:40 p.m. - 2004-11-20



so i went home with the easties and ended up getting off at bedok for lunch, only to find the food centre there closed. so we decided to go to the one opposite tj instead (it looks somewhat like a ghim moh) and i had a cheap lunch of prawn mee + otah + bbq chicken wing + charsiew + water chestnut-sugar cane for $6.50. not bad la. just getting a beef hor fun and sugar cane from ghim moh would have cost $5 already.

then i took bus 12 all the way to chinatown b4 taking 190 back up to e art museum which has bcum one of the places tt i visit frequently. some nice videos there:
(1) shows this translucent thingie which u realize is a stream of water and after a minute the tap is switched off and u see the water dripping; but upwards.
(2) shows a yellow screen (tt has slightly varying colours) for 1 minute b4 zooming out to show tt u're looking at a spinning yellow card
(3) a video camera in a train carriage pointing outwards. the scenery changes and then a station appears. and then things start to get weird. this guy on the platform is like looking around and he's not boarding the train. and ppl start walking backwards and then u realize. oh. reverse-motion. then everything starts making sense. and the train wasnt pulling into the station. it just left the station.
(4) and there was sth tt left me really puzzled. try figure out how u can cause a perfect circle on a piece of paper to stretch when u move it from the centre to the side of the screen. yet this happens only when u shift horizontally. it doesnt occur when u shift it vertically.

it's all abt perspective. life's abt perspectives too!

yup anw time to go off :D

errr physics and my careless mistakes. what have i to say. advice: pls dun check ur work.

8:03 p.m. - 2004-11-18



hm sth wrong with me. conservation of momentum? yeah maybe cos i started with zero momentum so after tt sudden burst of forward momentum i'm regressing. "u dun get the joke? nvm."

so i just dun feel like doing physics at all. yup. nvm i've all night. i napped after all...

10:41 p.m. - 2004-11-17



yeah holiday to dreamland hahahha. woke up at 6. physics!

8:12 p.m. - 2004-11-17



hm it's quite nice having rain without an overcast sky. nice warm feeling. good weather for going on holiday.

1:45 p.m. - 2004-11-17



haha was on the mrt talking abt how singapore is big/small and how u'll meet ppl if u go to orchard. and i saw cher hern (wow culdnt even remember his name) he's in hc now and he said hm maybe i shud have gone to rj (cos of s papers - harder to get there). and then when i came back to bishan i met serene lee! 1st time since i moved back here. heh she got a shock poor girl. so actually there ARE many rj ppl living nearby just tt perhaps everyone gets fetched so hmmm...

chem was fine (fine the paper wasnt tough) but its still better than nth. looks like i'm starting to perform up to normal standards. good. forgiven.

11:56 a.m. - 2004-11-17



hm today i think i performed ok. just a bit of mistakes here and there. but forgiveable mistakes. yay :)

cos i've to learn to forgive haha. i culdnt forgive myself last night over the genetics qn and the kidney slide incident and thus i couldnt sleep until 2+ i think. no more stupid mistakes and just try to make up for them. yup.. now i'm getting into the right mood for the As :)

2:56 p.m. - 2004-11-16



haha suddenly i want to sing again. shucks. nvr try singing in a choir! it's addictive.

5:07 p.m. - 2004-11-15



my neighbours are so nice. they're like preparing me for army. like telling me what to buy, what to do now (i.e. do more pushups la duh), what to expect and so on... and it's not once, the phone calls get more frequent as the date draws nearer. (the weird thing is they're just directly opposite us haha but we keep using the phone to communicate) so touching right?

and when i got my specs from my optician he was v encouraging too. (he's like even thinner than me can u imagine) no problem one la the max i could do was 32. (!!!!!)

so apparently NS can have the effect of making everyone feel like they belong to one big family (with this common traumatizing experience called NS?).

heh. just another phase in life. seng tat just told me tt perhaps i can get out after 1 or 2 weeks if i pass. *runs off to train for pull-ups*

11:16 a.m. - 2004-11-15



it's quite disgusting, all these diseases tt u can have (image a tapeworm in my GI tract. v possible considering how much i can eat and how much weight i can put on) oh yuck. all sorts of lesions and *shudders*

doing biotech now u c. haha. not really. microbio more like it...

2:24 a.m. - 2004-11-14



urgh. such a hassle bcos i forgot to eat my doxycycline (tetracycline! inhibit aminoacyl-tRNA from entering 70S ribosomes) after dinner. cos u're supposed to eat it immediately after a meal. so i ended up having to eat an apple, a pear and a banana b4 i swallowed the pill. heh.

10:04 p.m. - 2004-11-13



i said i'm a person who doesnt particularly like changes right...

i dislike the idea of gmail v much somehow. it just makes me *shudder* *shudder*. maybe cos i like the idea of organization, as well as the idea of getting rid of unwanted things. what's supposed to appeal is the infinite storage space but *shudders again* the idea of a total absence of hierarchy really is hm crazy. one big mess.

but then again. like i said i'm just resisting the change. soon enough i'm going to like gmail. yeah. haha. centralization is good. over-compartmentalisation leads to too many problems. haha

6:18 p.m. - 2004-11-13



really quite amusing to find pages linking to my blog like
that imagine some poor guy really trying to go to loreto and he stumbles upon my blog?!?!

and. i'm trying to find out who friedemann ang is. he left this note at diaryland saying tt he knows me, but i've totally no idea who this person is?!? "yoz hahahz... just wondering if correct person or nt, came across ur blog in web search sia. r u ex-BPPS? " hahah quite a mystery. i love mysteries... and the thing is he's in raffles voices now! he's sec 2. hm. i'd nvr have seen him!!!

1:32 p.m. - 2004-11-13



yesterday: whole day out at amk doing lotsa things haha. saw a doctor for my pimple-in-e-mole. then ate at jack's place. returned/renewed library books. applied for posb atm card. (and haha yay withdrew $20 for fun) made a new pair of black beautiful glasses *coughs*. hm. yup b4 heading home to change my blog template. what a slacker's life huh. haha. there are 43 photos as of now btw. i like e one with ensemble at VE e best as a template cos the backgrd of the photo is black as well and so it looks less like a photo. if u know what i mean.

11:06 a.m. - 2004-11-13



hm one way tt can surely make u forget a mistake u made: make an even bigger mistake. haha sad huh. is it true?

4:53 p.m. - 2004-11-12



hm just had this feeling tt the SAT scores will be here today so i went down to check the mailbox and indeed it was there haha. i thought they might give a breakdown for the physics and math but they dont heh *disappointed*

so apparently i'm an expert at improving paragraphs (5% of the population taking the test is as well) but i really cant improve senteneces. 5 wrong and 13 right. hm haha. cant remember what it was abt any more. heh.

2:29 p.m. - 2004-11-11



heh i realized tt i havent gone on a roller coaster for a very very long time. i miss the times when i would get really excited even when queuing and errr like go for the same ride repeatedly (up to like 10 times perhaps) e.g. when i was at disney world in sec 2. and singapore? so pathetic. haha.

set. when i go to cambridge (let's change tt to if) i must go to Alton Park.

ok enough of slacking and going on a virtual tour around the world kinda. makes me want to go on a holiday but heh there doesnt seem time for me to go on one. maybe i'll settle with going to punggol river again and visiting my mudskipper friends haha.

6:04 p.m. - 2004-11-10



oh shucks i feel so so smart. lol

from bena's blog: "and since when was f'(x) the symbol for inverse function huh?" haha oops i fell for the trick!!! 2 mark question. hahaha. i was wondering why they told me to state the range only in the next qn when i wuld have needed it to define the domain of the inverse function. *shrugs* and i agree absolutely. what on earth am i doing gambling with my A's. so many years for PSLE/O's. 2 whole years of prep for A's leh. and i mugged for bio from 9+ to 1.30? goodness. it seriously does not make sense. seriously too big a price to pay.

so therefore i will mug hard.

yeah, from tomorrow onwards.

anyway. wuppertal is quite an interesting place apparently. it's in germany. and it has this 103-year-old suspended railway system (which caught my attention and caused me to spend the 1st few hrs today reading up abt the city)

4:10 p.m. - 2004-11-10



heh terrible was doing qn 2 structured with abt 15 minutes left then i thought hm let's flip thru the paper and i realized oopsie missed out the genetics question altogether. errr. wow. heh. 8 marks in 5 minutes in the end. couldnt figure out. yeah. stupid huh. cos it said A/a and i thought this is definitely sex-linked but how do u show it then oops pens down. *cry*

well. at least math compensated for the bad start to the day. oh and i was just looking at the 15 EITHER before the exam (last year's paper?) but i din do it then nor did i do it in the end haha. cant be bothered.

one-week holiday. cheers!

6:46 p.m. - 2004-11-09



sth wrong with me.

last night on my bed out of every 10 yawns initiated i think only 1 was fully completed. and today i tried sneezing but i kinda swallowed it 4 times b4 i culd sneeze to clear whatever irritating stimulated it. and nowadays i've to take deep breaths (contracted trachea kinda) and like the yawns only approximately 1 in 10 are successful. heh :( irritating

9:03 p.m. - 2004-11-08



hm chem wasnt fantastic. but it wasnt disastrous at least. i was still slow. kinda finished but some parts were wrong anyway. finding out tt u made mistakes immediately after the paper makes u feel really stupid.

cant believe this is the a lvls i guess. i was assuming tt it would be as easy as o lvls was compared to ri prelims. not really heh. like today i felt the paper was controlling me and dragging me along. (what do i mean? i would feel like i'm in control during math papers most of the time.)

2:37 p.m. - 2004-11-08



hm finished chem. math next. and errr bio. hm. yeah.

oh yes yesterday my parents were watching romance of the 3 kingdoms n cao cao killed this absolutely innocent family bcos he was being too suspicious. it was just a short segment of abt 1 minute yet it's bothering me up till now. hmm

oh and what wonderful news (ok la probably not news any more just tt i just found out) tiong hwee has found a match for his bone marrow! in japan!

2:49 p.m. - 2004-11-07



there's this feeling of emptiness. there's still so much tt we dun know (just pick up Atkins, Morrison & Boyd, or Halliday or Campbell - and these are just general books), so when do we stop? and am i going to use whatever i've learnt in these 2 years in the future?

so hmm why does my dad use my Halliday (even more often than me actually *embarrassed*)? pure interest heh. i think so far i've been driven by the desire to know more, no doubt, but ultimately i know more than half the time it's to know more to do well in the A lvls. oh well. sons are supposed to grow up to be like their fathers arent they? good.

10:48 a.m. - 2004-11-07



trachea circular muscles triggered *action*

wah mr chris tan is right u know. i'm actually adding to /S surr. hopefully /S sys is decreasing (i.e. info being organized) haha think i'm talking rubbish? read abt it here. let's see if i want | /S sys | to be max then errr /S univ = 0 so hm it's reversible. shucks. no wonder all the information leaking away. heh. hHAahaa

8:23 p.m. - 2004-11-06



argh crazy spent one good hour on transition metals. goodness. and i have much chem and entire bio and entire math. uh-huh. *nods* *shakes head*

6:29 p.m. - 2004-11-06



disastrous haha. my brain has limited simultaneous-processing capabilities. was playing beethoven opus 26 funeral march bars 70-71. it's already Ab minor and there is a B double flat then back to B flat and G natural and... simply confusing

12:02 p.m. - 2004-11-06



hm. after being stuck with thermodynamics for the past few days i've finally gained momentum after dinner. great. it'd have been much better though if i were not such a last-minute person. oh yes definitely.

10:19 p.m. - 2004-11-05



tummy-ache. quasi-sore-throat. hmm. fever-to-be. drinking as much as possible... hopefully.

7:29 p.m. - 2004-11-05



come to think of it it's actually quite terrible to sleep while u're really stressed. last night i woke up a grand total of 4 times i think. yeah. terrible huh. still so last minute.

8:56 p.m. - 2004-11-04



oh simply appalling.

haha was playing my grade 8 pieces and i kept playing crap. like accidentals at the wrong time or left hand insisting on coming in b4 it's supposed to. stuff like tt. (!!!!) it's only been i think 2 or 3 months since i last played them and it's deteriorated to this state... :(

hopefully. my studies arent like tt. *adds excess lubrication oil* but oil cant really remove rust can it it only prevents rusting. oopsie.

anyway yanjie is really quite a funny guy quite young at heart and had another conversation-ful ride back home on 156 with xu xu. chinese scholars are fun ppl. heh we shud really get to know them well cos after all our govmt are paying for their school fees partially for us to do so. :D and qi qiong i hope she needs no more scolding. quote of the day from tianjiao haha "zhe4 shi4 shang4 deng3 huo4 ah" prcs in our class rule!!!

5:25 p.m. - 2004-11-04



gp wasnt too bad... hopefully it'll be fine. "u have no choice anyway" heh. is this really the end of gp, the end of my reading of the newspapers, the economist, etc? heh part of me wishes tt it wuld be. (yeah i'm quite a pragmatic person i do read for the sake of gp sometimes) but much as it can be a chore at times, i must cultivate this into a good habit haha. yay! life-long learning. heh.

oh i'm glad the invigilator for my row (actually, strictly speaking, column) is pretty nice to us. yay. :)

haha i dun think i've yay-ed so much after a gp paper. cos it's the last one hahahaha. sometimes i wonder. so my writing skills will remain as terrible as now forever? like stuck at the b3 level. hm terrible thought. my chinese also. these are the real life-skills. who cares abt math chem bio physics.

eh. btw i bought this $15 worth of GP prelim papers last year. errr. nvr ever looked at them. $15 --> *poof* din even get like confidence out of it :(

2:25 p.m. - 2004-11-04



mmhm. A lvls finally! yeap. starting in 9.5 hours. heh. ok here we come.

10:33 p.m. - 2004-11-03



haha somehow some things just dun change. (hm i think i'll change quite a bit if i do go to cambridge or actually even nus for tt matter. or ns. haha. change is inevitable)

mum: so u're telling our neighbours tt it's e start of the exam season huh.
hk: hm issit. perhaps
*continues polishing his bach sinfonia in c minor*

heh. it's the period when my piano teacher is usu the happiest too.

8:22 p.m. - 2004-11-03



uh-huh. *looks around* good morning. 11:33!!! wow.

11:33 a.m. - 2004-11-03



okok wake-up call finally. heh. came at a good time too. (from me. haha)

jia you jia you jia you!!!!!

11:25 p.m. - 2004-11-02



i've been doing more gp than i've ever done in my life. good sign? hahaha. not like it'll help tt much. i was just reading abt education and wondering hm so i'm now reading abt how to educate my child next time (homeschooling, Montessori Method, etc)

oh and started wondering. what is it abt JC tt makes it promote conformity less than sec sch does? bcos everyone is different to begin with so there is a smaller grp to conform to? hm. why?

gp in 2 days' time. or i should start counting down in hours huh. 35 hours to the gp paper. mmhm. take away abt 20 odd hours for sleeping/eating/stuff u have abt 15 hrs left. haha alright strive on.

mm and somehow my trachea is contracting again. not good.

9:04 p.m. - 2004-11-02



we can achieve,
if we believe,
the power we hold within...

10:23 p.m. - 2004-11-01



hm many things just disappear and u forget abt them.

search engines like infoseek. northern light. and department stores like yaohan. or small little restaurants like the soya bean corner in ghim moh macs.

eh at least ppl dun change tt quickly or disappear like tt. or maybe they do huh and after some time they become mere fading memories. sad.

11:33 a.m. - 2004-11-01



it's most unfortunate tt dr campbell has passed away. mmhm. yeah. sad. at age 58. heart failure. :( everyone pls start eating healthily it's nvr too late.

10:40 p.m. - 2004-10-31



pretty good day!

first i got to sleep till 10.30 (errr tt's quite normal actually nowadays). and i had a good lunch then went back to cashew heights and found this in my mailbox:

a card tt read
"Happy Birthday to Andy & Domenico
from a great fan.
All the best for the 'A' levels."

so i started wondering. err. huh? *scratch head* parents join in the mystery-solving. eliminate all sorts of neighbours. hm. who is this Domenico? *looks around trying to find this new family member perhaps* ~~v puzzled~~

!!! aha. my piano teacher. Domenico Scarlatti (October 26 1685 � July 23 1757), Italian baroque composer [he was born in Naples!!! :)] haha.

so i decided to give her a surprise as she did to me. waited for the previous student to finish and i went in as though i was going for lessons. hahaha. yeah and anyway so we started chatting (ok la we dun really chat tt well - her views on many issues are rather unorthodox) and i showed her some photos from last year and she kept a few. her mum remembers me as the naughty one. haha. when they saw how friendly our tutors in school are, her mum said, "all of them seem very friendly, unlike this one *points* who is so fierce." "hey i'm not fierce to him ok because he does his work" [starts thinking: hm. i thought u knew i dun practise my scales. phew. hahahaha]

so tt was pretty fun and then we went to kranji turf club for the SCO concert. which. honestly. was not good. i think the arrangements were quite badly done. either tt or the CO is just not suitable for those songs. yup.

9:42 p.m. - 2004-10-31



suddenly have this ominous feeling within me tt whatever success i might have had in these past 18 years of my life (perhaps sometimes achieved without putting in hard work) and whatever potential i have bcos of tt will just go *poof* thanks to this one A lvls.

for once, i'm really afraid tt will happen. too big a risk.

come on. work. tackle it. prove ur worth.

11:49 a.m. - 2004-10-31



shucks. 5 days left. cant believe it. and i'm like what. slacking!!!!!

urgh. must be my enlistment countdown diverting my attention. it says 42 days!!! no wonder... heh. go hong king go!!!

9:41 p.m. - 2004-10-30



haha yesterday was really v fun and amazing actually now tt i think of it again. thanks weili! heh. it was v tiring too esp the 02R part (riding on the grass was terrible at low gear) and when u're riding out to such a faraway place anyone u see on the way is a friend and u wave to them and they wave to u and it's a happy day. changi beach park was really cool too trees are just next to the path and u're like really riding through a forest. not singapore definitely.

went to raffles city personally to hand in the firefly application form haha. in case singpost doesnt deliver in 2 working days as promised. better safe than sorry heh.

9:44 p.m. - 2004-10-29



yay christopher's finally gone! :D:D

8:54 p.m. - 2004-10-29



did you know?
condominium: a country which is governed by two or more foreign powers

and dreamt abt cycling last night. not v surprising huh.

11:03 a.m. - 2004-10-29




ok first the chem prac. it's not fantastic but personally for me it was better than prelims. cos i did really quite badly for prelim prac so yeah. nth can be worse. haha how optimistic.

oh and bao luo is really a funny guy. rotflol.

as usual had one of my try-to-get-weili-to-cycle urges so i asked him and he agreed. so. from mtbatten rd to changi village and back. 20km. was raining on the way so perhaps i'm a bit sick now (+ lots of food but esp the satay beehoon i dun think i'll ever eat it again) but it was quite fun on the whole but tested my stamina quite a bit. i was tired la. how many days/weeks/(even months perhaps) of lack of exercise and now suddenly intense, long exercise? haha impossible la.

our max ave speed was actually 22.5kph along changi coast road parallel to the airport's runway (20L). at first a bit more humji so rode on the grass but tt was really quite tiring and progress was slow. on the road it wasnt quite as difficult but u have cars/trucks speeding past u at appalling speeds (i suppose some above 100kph) and for once we culd actually feed the truck pulling air along with it and pushing me forward. scary. and there was this place where the road suddenly had a depression (covered by mud) and we both "woh"ed at the same time. wuld have crashed if we hadnt held on to the handle. lots of things to see on the way, lots of new developments (new pond and paths and so on).

but yeah i'm glad i had exercise. *ouch my butt hurts* --- sleep n tml it'll b even worse haha. oh just now culdnt even run (legs like jelly culdnt bend) or sit down (once i attempt to sit i practically just free fall onto the chair)

10:56 p.m. - 2004-10-28



this afternoon was really productive :):) now i'm doing QA! thanks christelle for encouraging me on haha otherwise maybe i'll be starting on my prep like now. lol.

the gd thing abt having a productive period of time is tt u want to have more productive time ahead so tt the productive work achieved within the first period isnt wasted ("diluted"). get what i mean?

9:37 p.m. - 2004-10-27



it's a really really good bday. ooooh. i guess i can be happy quite easily heh.

went to ikea first to try find the pestle and mortar for sang but heh they ran out of stock. anw on the way got to know this thai girl (20yrs old) and told her a bit abt singapore and at the end of it "nice to meet u" and exchange of email addresses. felt v friendly haha. a new friend to start the new day. not bad. and. every single bus i took today came at the right time. at most 2 minutes waiting time! hahaha.

ate swedish meatballs plus some dessert b4 my interview. (oops his name - dr navaratnam - is kind of tongue-twisting. i went "gd afternoon dr ..." and ended up with some gibberish like ravarat + oops) bad first impression haha. but it really wasnt tt bad. (be optimistic la)

first he asked me where i went b4 tt so i said oh ikea to buy my friend's birthday present. so he asked why and so on. when i was done answering i added. "hmm. it happens to be my birthday today!" so he went "tt's interesting hopefully the interview will be a happy one for u."

started with qns on my research project. which haha was done 1.5 years ago so i kinda forgot a lot of things but i assured him tt i knew my stuff and yar i've forgotten but i know the idea so it's this this this and that that that. spent quite a bit of time on tt he didnt seem convinced at times but oh well. then i was asked a qn on cell junctions so yeah haha luckily i made tt cell.ppt last year and i read up so apparently i did fine for tt qn. he challenged me a few times so i said yeah tt's true but what i said is true too. haha.

[so u sing in the choir? what sacred music? what jazz music?] so i started listing ave verum corpus, crucifixus - it's this 10 part song - and i intended to even sing sth but i got cut off haha b4 i finished listing - [mm what abt the choral festival?] well it was great. it was a competition at first but bcame a festival cos number of teams decreased. - cut off again -

[let's try some physics. how do u find the density of some sample, let's say cerebrospinal fluid] hm, well, err u culd use a ball bearing drop it into it and observe the terminal velocity and u know viscous force and yar u can find the density from formulae. [mm so what is density] amt of mass u can pack into a certain volume. [so why dunt u just weigh it and divide by its volume] errr hahahhaha :D how stupid huh but at least i'm not like wrong.

[what abt chemistry. mm tell me abt plastics] hm ok one type of classification could be there are some which can be remoulded and some tt cant. [give me an example of each] (shucks) well perhaps poly vinyl chloride [would u like to draw it on the board] yup. but i'm not v sure actually. *draws a chloroethene molecule* [tt's an ethylene molecule u're drawing] oh yeah so this is the monomer *removes one bond and adds bracket ard the entire thing* there u go. [ok]

and tt was the end of the interview. haha. i dun really think tt was v bad. haha or was it? or maybe he thought i was so stupid tt he gave so many simple qns. hahaha alright.

then came back to bishan after tt and had dinner with parents which was good. and bought a big cake. and yay!!! i was really happy man. met mr and mrs yap and their son! woh i just shouted la "mrs yap!!!" cos the other day sing yong and i tried looking for her but failed. so yar talked non-stop. poor child was fidgetting haha and he gave me a hi-five at the command of his mum. she said i grew taller but still as thin as ever haha. then mr krishnan appeared and i was like "mr krishnan!!!!" yar. happiness. yeah apparently they still talk abt our batch when they get together (they referring to ms quah mrs lim mrs yap mr krishnan). felt so so elated just so elated. the surprise intensified the happiness i guess. so much so tt by the time i reached home i still had a smile on my face. yeah and i started singing of cos and tt kinda makes me as happy as possible. oh tt intense happiness as i was walking past the mrt after talking to mrs yap. indescribable man.

and yar hey cant forget those who wished me happy bday. each msg matters to me k. haha considering tt i dun have tt many friends hahaha. and guess what i made another new friend: at 8+ i received this: Dear hongking, Happy McBirthday greetings to you from the Management and Staff of McDonald's Singapore! hahahahaha

and damien phua! the relief teacher with the same bday as me. haha it's just fun to share a bday with someone. someone u know haha. and then it was ee sang's bday. haha yay right?


yeah... yay!


01:01 a.m. - 2004-10-27



heh was supposed to wake up early today to go to school to do thermody b4 cambridge interview haha. barely woken up. lazy pig. my mum bluffed me!! first time she tried to wake me up she said "it's 10 o clock!" but i kinda wanted to sleep more *yawns*. and the second time? it was exactly the same "it's 10 o clock!". haha she's always like tt. her pri sch teacher must have taught her to round up to the nearest hour when necessary.

interesting dreams. (oh the one yesterday was in my room and reginald and krishna were there somehow signing up for a course in chinese). so anyway there was this old church-like building on stilts in the middle of some water body. and i wanted to explore it so i went there alone but it wasnt structurally very sound and yar the floor was made of weak wooden boards (this must have drawn inspiration from the temporary structure that's being built next to buona vista mrt - 3f would know what i'm talking abt) then errr aaron from my og came near the building so i thought good. but he suddenly sank and i thought oops. he was actually riding on a whale!! and he was really having fun haha but i decided against getting myself wet and then andrew came to my rescue. quite funny haha

its quite strange tt physics prac yesterday was so standard. both pracs of the same form: even the equations involved were the same?!? guess it saved time for us, otherwise i might not have been able to finish the oscillations question - 1 hr isnt really enough if u dun work v quickly.

10:16 a.m. - 2004-10-26



eh i declare hk's info-hub open!!!

basically if u have any academic queries with regards to the 3 sciences feel free to approach me. through email or msn. yup. (accuracy of info to the best of my ability)

a collaborative effort by andy wong and andy wu.

6:17 p.m. - 2004-10-25



u know suddenly the idea of really going to cambridge sounds a bit scary. like hm i might even prefer to do medicine at nus. haha. going to a rather ulu place with tonnes of brains around u, and hmmm so many new things and wow. haha actually not tt intimidating la.

eh i hate change actually. i hate uncertainty too. and yet i like unpredictability. a weird person i am indeed.

5:08 p.m. - 2004-10-25



it's amazing how time flies.

exams exams and more exams. u wish tt everything was over more quickly. hm and meanwhile tonnes of things are happening outside school. e.g. my cip person-in-charge (salvation army) has left the organization. one of the teachers there were telling me last year abt how she was going to get married and now she's going for maternity leave. and errr a colleague at MOT left for another new company.

my working life better be exciting man otherwise continuing to be a student may not be tt bad an idea.

3:16 p.m. - 2004-10-25



quite funny hahah i was flipping thru my physics prac file. and oops spa!! got level 7 for manipulation *bows* but errr level 3 for recording *disappears*. haha cos i din finish la... quite usual.

and there was this resistance-of-voltmeter prac which bao rong marked and haha in the marking scheme: item G4 "not estimated to 1/5 smallest square for sited points not at intersection of the grid" - close eyes

hahahaha. mmm no stupid mistakes tml. better be better than bio.

8:54 p.m. - 2004-10-24



there are 2 programmes tt i must watch every week.
1. zong1 yi4 da4 ge1 da4, 2. mei3 shi2 da4 san1 tong1

they really really really make me laugh. do try watching them even if u dun ever watch chinese progammes. (eh but maybe different sense of humuor huh. )

u can appreciate music(1), wow at ppls' talents(1), get entertainment(1+2) - (high frequency), knowledge(2), and improve ur chinese just a bit by keeping u in contact with the language(2).

my chinese is really gone. how am i going to teach my children??? :( i've trouble speaking in complete sentences nowadays. eh not tt my english is any better. so maybe i shud just learn a new language again and be good at it (just like i was at jap) when what they teach is still elementary. beyond tt? the main problem with me is i dun read la stupid boy.

so. start reading!

bleah what a messy entry.

9:01 p.m. - 2004-10-23



heh i was worried tt the paper will be bio-content-heavy. more like common sense and gp. hahahahaha. well. life. goes. on!!! :)

6:14 p.m. - 2004-10-23



poooor maia. i thought she was the one who was the most idol-like. as in like perhaps without the need for much training. oh well. haha but i only watch idol on and off and dunno abt their backgrounds / whether they're consistent throughout. so maybe she cant get further anyway huh.

8:59 p.m. - 2004-10-22



hm i feel tt i might just be a bit too optimistic. but it doesnt help being pessimistic anyway. (cos i'm telling myself no lar it'll be fine in the end. but maybe i really ought to worry a bit this time)

first. i forgot to bring my calculator into the lab. waited for the invilgilator to finish checking the ID cards (meanwhile horror stories of how some ppl have been denied access to calculators appeared in my brain and i started trying to find space to do working. "hm good. a few blank pages here and there.") thankfully the invigilator was kind.

then none of my tubes changed colour so i decided to use my brain a bit. cant really trust my usual experimental results anyway so yeah i was kinda used to it. but well it's the As after all.

and then the slide. mm. coverslip facing downwards. couldnt focus. V smart huh. and i consulted mr chan. *marks gone....* really shudnt have asked cos i din look at the slide in the end anyway *slap slap*

after the ordeal went w xiaohui to causeway point for lunch and then mugged a bit at the library. haha there was this baby crying and then she commented, "donald duck". lol.

mmhm time to continue (mugging?). no more stupidity pls. for a moment i was thinking. hm nvm next time dun make the same mistake. next time?? right.

better make sure tt everything u do in the next month or so is ur personal best. no excuse of using this failure as a lesson. yeah? try.

9:12 p.m. - 2004-10-21



some of the twisties ads r quite funny. 1974: twisties start production, 1975: restaurants put up signs "no outside food allowed"

mm. gp revision was actually useful. some things contradict with what mr khoo said though. the gp department ought to have some similar workshops every now and then to expose us to the style of other tutors.

mm and my body has relieved my mum of her roles. to nag at me to sleep early and drink more water.

4:02 p.m. - 2004-10-20



*desperately tries to drink lots of water* i'm like falling sick within one day. headache in the middle of the day, flu/sore throat developing now. hopefully the panadol is potent as mr chan claims it is.

anw. studied in school kinda. gd to have started.

6:59 p.m. - 2004-10-19



i figured. i'm addicted to using the comp. just now when my dad was using it and consequently i was forced to sit down and review the prelim papers for the first time proper, i felt as though i was suffering from withdrawal syndromes. (when u're addicted u dun really know what u turn on the comp for. ultimate sadness)

anyway haha i always have problems getting started. things like studying eh it's analagous to endothermic reactions. i need catalysts in my life. to lower the activation energy. beyond the transition state i'd be safely on my way. hopefully lar. though there's always a min Ea for endo reactions. so why cant studying be exothermic? heh.
"A hard-working human brain, perhaps one that is grapping with chemical thermodynamics, operates at about 25W." ~~ who says studying isnt exothermic? :D

9:56 p.m. - 2004-10-18



a nap from 5 to 7 had rather unexpected powers haha rejuvenated me. momentum? slowly gaining. still need time though. dun have much of tt left. hm..

9:21 p.m. - 2004-10-17



i cant get started! urgh

3:42 p.m. - 2004-10-17



wow what a dream.

cant remember how it started but i know i was trying to look for mr alfred chan (but somehow we were in the RI campus). other RJ chem tutors (dr chan, mr tan) were ard too but i din talk to them.. then apparently i went to some supermarket to buy tidbits (why would i suddenly treat ppl ok strange) and then i met my rj class. in particular there were these ppl: sunny, bao rong, xiaohui, xuxu. and then when i opened one box of giant pokka sticks there were sparklers inside (?!!!??) but they din quite work cos they were wet (weili, christine, bao appeared here). oh and i kept saying ppls' names wrongly. xiaohui bcame ringhui?!?

so somehow after tt i went to some room (it looks like the geog room in rj somewhat) with my sec 4 geog notes! yar and some fat guy (looks a bit like a junior in my junior class) messed everything up and then i got fed up. then grace chew and shen ting appeared. and then grace lim and classmates (choon hwee, yi xun) and then mr edmund kwok.

walked out of this class and passed by a TS (TS11-20 type) and saw mingze (?) through the door window. and then saw john liu (pri sch) so i went back to check on the other window and mingze wasnt there any more. replaced by 2 whole rows of ppl from bpps. ppl i remembered include Thinesh, Karthik, Junda, Haogen. errrr wow. and Rao2 lao3 shi1.

at least 23 ppl altogether. wow.

10:22 a.m. - 2004-10-17



realized i din really get much of what john was saying during his vote of thanks apart from thinking errrr what is it abt him tt makes him so different, so much more capable than all of us.

wait. "how i want these 2 years to end quickly." nver did feel tt way. i remember mr hodge's "rjc is abt ppl and env(?) and opportunities" i've grabbed so many opportunities in rj, much more than i did in ri, and tt has made me want to lengthen these 2 years all the while. perhaps cos i was really too inactive/passive in ri. it really makes me sad when i know tt so many ppl prefer their sec sch life, while i actually prefer jc life (as usual, i'm the odd one out). why sad? perhaps bcos few ppl actually would try as hard as i might want to, to make these 2 years more memorable and fruitful. or at least, with me. get what i mean? u have ppl (or maybe just those ppl whom i know) frequently referring themselves back to their sec sch cliques and so on. i dun have the benefit of tt firm foundation. i had sing yong yes but it's just kinda different. i'm glad we still do keep in touch and he still does initiate stuff like going back to ri together. i'm glad u do really i am. anyway, i'm happy with friends i have in jc but i just feel insecure. insecure abt how maybe these friendships might just disintegrate with time. i beg tt they not be taken away from me with time but well yar nth can ever be guaranteed.

"jc being a taste of the real world"? i've a feeling tt the average student hasnt actually experienced tt much of the real world. personally i dun think rj can possibly be representative of the real world. but i cant be sure cos i havent interacted with enough ppl to know if rj does represent the world after all / most ppl have indeed had a taste of the real world (maybe thru things like cip or cca exchange programmes with other schools or other special programmes?).

but look at 3f. we 3f, real world? no i dun see the link. not at all.

chorale, real world? i dunno. personally i really hope the real world isn't just like tt or i'd be really lonely. (ahahahaha it's 2.42am now i'm getting incoherent) look i'm not resentful but i really wish our batch (i even hesitate b4 using the word "our") were like last year's. more inclusive of everybody. [i really dun blame anybody] i really wanted sth out of chorale but i guess i din really get the best possible. still, ths music was gd, the concert was gd, the trip was gd. good then.

so what have i gained from rj? quite a lot actually. impossible to list everyth i guess but i'm glad i grew/matured. i'm definitely not quite the same hk as the one u'd have known when i was with skyla on day 1 of orientation. perhaps only 30 or 40% of tt hk is left...

at the very least, i will not regret doing anything i've done in rj (ok actually apart from not trying hard enough for bio o but tt's a chronic problem of mine: lack of determination). i've enjoyed myself v much and i thank everybody who has provided joy. gm food club + a few others haha very on yar. we've (ok lar i agree actually "we" excluded quite a lot of ppl also) explored so much of singapore!!! amazing. [culd v well be the mascot for STB or sth haha.] 3f aint the typical go-watch-movie-and-pool-at-orchard class definitely and i feel blessed for being in such a class (though sometimes i do wonder what if i had entered a class which is more "mainstream" so to speak).

thanks also to friends i've found outside class, yes you, you, you and you. haha yeah...

awwwwwwwwwww :D

< pessimism >

actually i'm sorry but i dun feel much for 3f. bleah. cant believe i'm saying this. feeling for individuals/grps in the class, yes. but as a class, really, no. cannot. sigh. 3f rocks? heh i dunno.

thankyou all for providing sadness as well otherwise i'd nvr have experienced sadness (err yar believe it or not i was nver sad in ri). taught me how to cope at least.

< / pessimism >

alright. time to sleep. it is a full package of ups and downs no doubt.

1:50 a.m. - 3:13 a.m. - 2004-10-17



pretty happy with a v normal day.

mm lunch at turf city. the place is in such a sorry state. my goodness, 3 years and it's still as empty as ever. i pity the shop-owners really. and courts has moved out (i dunno since when). i wonder how they're gonna develop the place. somehow i've a feeling singaporeans usu dun give up tt easily (too stubborn actually at times).

then errr table tennis back at cashew. then to IMM. giant again. realized all the prices are standardized heh. thought tt the way giant sells its goods is really not v appealing. either tt or the stuff they sell arent of v high quality. anyway their trolleys are irritating. my first one kept going to the left, the second one could go straight but refused to turn left (URGH!). pushing a trolley has nver been such a pain.

anyway yar the most exciting part. apparently i got charged electrostatically somehow. and cos i have sweaty palms i discharged thru the trolley 3 times and my dad 1 time. i culd actually see sparks bet my hand and the trolley. goodness. they were all a very nice bright blue! hAhaHA

12:16 a.m. - 2004-10-17



it was a happy day :)

began with a surprise lunch. supposed to be just 5 of us but turned out to be 8 of us. ate at orchard swensen's. hahahha yeah maybe i was a bit demanding to get them to do my steak again but oh well what i got culdnt possibly be medium so yup. took 111 back to school.

wasnt v happy at first actually. after distributing the stuff i was thinking ergh i hate myself. stubborn hk. i'd like to apologize here for all the times when i've distributed stuff inefficiently and refused help from others. beef was prob thinking what's this hk doing arh it's not as complicated as he makes it out to be. yeah it is. i'm kinda unhappy with myself also, yeah so sorry abt tt.

din help v much tt it was terrribly hot and yeah i wasnt exactly familiar with ppl ard me and i din really feel like talking. so just kinda sat there and waited for the entire thing to end (fortunately it was short).

mm our class took so many photos b4 eating and i was like ok well yeah drown my sorrow (ok lar not sorrow) by helping more and more ppl take photos. couldnt force much smiles for the photos. mm. yar.

took photos with 4p. it was great seeing everyone (not all though) back together again after 2 years.

went to the spex gal. felt better after seeing the spectacular flying sparklers. just tt our class din have any hahaha. but still it was fine.

back to e semi-D. tt was where the fun began. sang some songs, playing catching (kinda) by throwing light-sticks. i figured tt if i ran with all my strength i'd feel happy and i tried chasing ying heng and i really laughed after tt. my theory worked haha. (it's sth like during chorale initiation camp and i spun along with the j1s for the game at the small park and i just kept spinning and culdnt walk straight after tt. tt was really memorable) and then there was the throwing of lightsticks across the rugby poles while another team catches them on the other side. tt was really fun too. tt lasted us till ard 10.10. yup. and i guess with xh ard it's a bit like orientation. + the fact tt we were at the semi-D, and later going to the small amphitheatre-like thingie outside the back-gate where we had our first og lunch i think.

only thing tt culd have made the evening more perfect wuld be ensemble singing while walking towards the mrt. imagine. ahhh fantastic. haha i brought 2 years worth of scores but din use them in the end. wuld have made me so much happier.

on the whole, rather great a day.

12:00 a.m. - 2004-10-16



i find tt haha no matter who i tried to talk to last night, the conversations couldnt last beyond 3 minutes. (these are ppl whom i havent spoken to for ages and perhaps i nver did know them v well either. ) but still, 3 min is pathetic heh.

10:13 a.m. - 2004-10-15



hm quite wuliao leh staying at home. not gd. i better have a plan... and errr abstain from using the comp or at least msn i think tt's v impt.

hope everyone's doing fine. farewell assembly. sob sob. do so many ppl really think tt rj life sucked? hm tt's kinda sad... :(

12:09 a.m. - 2004-10-15



hm cool (kinda). the doctor who is testifying for sergeant hu's case saw me half a year ago for my hand heh. his name is Mark Leong btw and he was from RI and he did inspire me to bcum an A&E doctor. whether i bcum one is another matter though...

12:42 a.m. - 2004-10-14



aiyah i think rj students shud show some basic courtesy to sit through the workshop today esp when it's an outsider. oh well. just my opinion though.

usu when teachers come to our class and say much less than when they do in other classes it's cos we dun need much explanation. but for gp? i think our class must be so boring for him... think his so5a lessons must be much more interesting heh.

9:28 p.m. - 2004-10-13



just woke up. bleah what a pig.

11:23 a.m. - 2004-10-13



hm. interesting dream. i was at choir (wow) and errr someone was sending lots of chalk powder into the air and i was thinking to myself haha chalk powder, no problem! but i kinda still had an asthma attack. (wonder what my brain was thinking of). was pretty touched by the concern from ppl. eh but it's just my imagination...

10:10 a.m. - 2004-10-12



i'm seriously v v touched by a certain sms. oh gosh i just cant believe it :) thanks. (haha to reduce guesses it's a classmate)

why so secretive arh. u can ask me if u want lar just dun wanna announce to the whole world. dun think the person will be v happy heh.

12:18 a.m. - 2004-10-12



it's quite cool actually imagine the net in 10 years time. or blogging for tt matter. and we can tell our children abt how lousy the net was when it first started. and perhaps 9/11 (which they will be studying as modern history).

somehow i wish i culd go forward 10 or perhaps 20 years in time to just get a glimpse of what i'll be doing then. or perhaps not huh. u nver know what can happen to u if u know what u're not supposed to. maybe u'll meet urself and u'll disappear from the surface of this planet. hm. actually not too bad an idea.

10:10 p.m. - 2004-10-11



morning was productive (chem was really not tt hard. but i guess under exam conditions it's different.) gp was errrrr well yar u know mmhm hopefully yar well ok. haha. crap.

the highlight was shifeng's bday celebration after tt!!! how cool. haha i wish ppl culd celebrate my birthday like tt. HINT HINT. hahaha. but really quite nice lar. and we are all so young. 17!!! except shifeng and eric. all musical grps. mm. nice. haha.

8:55 p.m. - 2004-10-11



from wikipedia: "A bizarre arbitrary association may stick in the mind better than a logical one". exactly. analogies, anyone? hahahahaha. [too bad haha private joke]

11:25 p.m. - 2004-10-10



i told myself i needed a dream last night. i had one. guess what i was doing. setting up the camera to take count-down shots. haha. too much of them over the past week.

anyway last night i felt like reminiscing abt stuff so i took out the chorale farewell notes and heh tt was july. now it's october! time flies. a bit early yar ppl were already writing all the best for ur As at tt time. haha. but it's finally here. what i realized was, this time i've no pressure to perform.
1: for o lvls, perfect score wasn't impossible. it had been achieved in the prelims and there was only worse tt culd follow. maintaining an achievement i feel is much harder cos there isnt much motivation, not much of a goal. (sth like my math sat yest lar) this time? cant get an A1 for GP lar so yar.
2: expectations from teachers can cause stress. in rj there isnt this problem any more cos i'm not near the top. i've nver been actually. it's just tt back in RI i was a GEP so i culd take 11 subjects, and, well, those who are much smarter than me (in GEP) just din happen to take 3rd lang.
eh but whether or not the lack of pressure/stress is good, i've yet to decide.

anyway back to chorale notes. was flipping thru the tenors-photo-album tt terence kindly made for us. the last page with us at hk airport / sg airport somehow captured expressions tt was apt for the farewell to tenor. somewhat tired look, reflecting tt we've gone thru quite a bit, yet it's not an emotion-filled thingie. all of us with our different characters. all of us perhaps going on to very different futures, but perhaps when we meet again one day, we can sing. wow.

5:57 p.m. - 2004-10-10



hm. i can understand how bing rui feels totally. did physics first. so by the time i got to math i felt totally sian. and i got rather irritable. this girl in front of me was punching her calculator as though the paper was of RJ chem standard and she desperately needed more time. and meanwhile i was taking my own sweet time checking each question to ensure that 1+2=3 and not 2. i guess i felt like urgh why on earth am i taking this pointless math paper??? (i nver knew tt i wuld feel miserable doing sth non-challenging i thought i should have been happy) so i had to drag myself through the last 25 or so questions. it was really a torture. pls nver let it happen again...

anyway today chatting on msn was fun. first my mood was good cos grace chew sounded really hyped up. like hiiiii and dunno what else haha. so got me all hyped up as well. then suddenly all 6 ppl i was talking to were depressed/sad/sian. and then suddenly talked abt more serious matters 3 concurrent chats. satsifying.

8:25 p.m. - 2004-10-09



i'm tired. why must i have SAT tml? hai... :(

but hm supposed to be resting now...

9:12 p.m. - 2004-10-08



i kinda like mrs kwan. who cares if she takes attendance. we're 3f after all. her wake-up call yest was good, just like mr leong's today.

we're coming to the end of all formal lessons in uniform. oh well. physics was good, productive, and basically mr wong looked happy throughout. hope he's proud of us. tml we're gonna have our 5-tutorial block and we'll see each tutor for the last time proper. wonder what paul khoo's going to do this time heh. and ms lee. and mr chan. and everybody lar. hopefully not just post-mortem and more post-mortem? esp ms lee! heh.

9:07 p.m. - 2004-10-07



(first time in many months) had a 9-ppl lunch today at ghim moh with the class it was kinda fantastic though there seemed to be some sort of a communication gap. after AS-ing for so long there seems to be a new species. of them or of us, i cant decide. (how do we decide who AS-es? if it is determined by proportion then well i guess we're the ones AS-ing heh)

so after math s and tt college award thingie went home with eric. remembered talking to eric like tt (as in with nobody else ard) perhaps 1.7 years ago on the mrt. yeah. and tt was at the beginning of jc. and now's the end. time passes quickly.

-stray thought- how weird singapore is. why do we have cabs in so many colours: red, yellow, blue, green, black, white, silver? (transcab, citycab, comfort, smart, yellow-top, mercedez cabs, silvercab + some london cabs) as far as i'm concerned it's usu standardized in other countries, at least those i've been to. if there are varying colours then it's to differentiate between perhaps the type of taxi (as in seoul: private or shared), the territory served (as in hong kong: green for new territories, blue for lantau island, red for anywhere). ok nvm not like this matters.

went to the esplanade to read the "writing" book. still dozed off a bit but well i did manage to finish the book so haha still achieved what i meant to. what a coincidence though. xiaohui&co found me there, and on my way back, saw BING RUI!!!!(&mum) he looked ok, so did his mum. i seriously wonder how he's coping... i wish him well.

then went to mph at raffles city to read the math and physics books (oh well when the school library has such limited resources u have no choice) - ok lar it's just tt rj students are all last minute. cant blame anybody. so yar i think it shud be fine just need to do some practice papers to boost confidence. as for writing. heh. think it's all abt practising huh.

8:59 p.m. - 2004-10-06



rather ok day i guess... results were decent so i'm kinda glad (now it's abt time to study properly tt's for sure)

oh yes. haha. felt a bit helpless at first during chem s. the feeling of sitting in lt2 and staring at the screen and getting lost and staring at an empty sheet of paper (ok lar this time only for qn 2 - heh "u lay ur own egg? singapore would not run out of egg anymore! hurray! - with love, Dr Chan") maybe it's just the whole atmosphere in the lt which makes ppl feel stupid suddenly. where there's like a gathering of brain powers. but anyway it's a really familiar feeling and i actually like it. gives me the idea tt i still have lots and lots of time b4 all major exams. and maybe lots of choir pracs. hahahaha

9:40 p.m. - 2004-10-05



another pleasant surprise. damien phua, the guy who relief-taught us some years back remembers me. cos we share the same bday! he was the 11-A1 guy whom i thought i'll emulate. but heh nope it din happen.

mmm. feeling very mmmmhmmmm now.

11:11 p.m. - 2004-10-04



i miss singing in a choir!!!!!!! (this is not the first time and i'm not the only person)

it's like a withdrawal syndrome really.

Crucifixus etiam pro nobis sub Pontio Pilato, passus et sepultus est.
Les fleurs les arbre, les bronze le marbre, les or les e maux.
Rutz ritz ka mikla maizes abra...
Iddem dem Mallida, ina bactmida ida.
It was, just one of those things... ...

Pok pok alimpa ko pok
Mamayog, akun, mamayog akun
Dieu qui la fait bon regarder

endless memories.

I WANT THE MUSIC! NOW! *smiling as i sing!*

9:51 p.m. - 2004-10-04



woohoo what a day.

bio was to be returned first but the forever-efficient chem department was a step earlier and returned us the entire set of 4 papers even b4 ms lee came back to the lab. then there was also GP. (baoluo was really funny when he was trying to ask for more marks for bio prac)

dr chan was commenting on how i'm "no big no small" (his exact words in hokkien though) sometimes. or maybe a lot of the time. hAhaHAhha. shall change tt bad habit of mine... talk to teachers with respect heh :D

oh and i lost my handphone in the canteen. sang called my number and the person said "canteen stall number 1" haha and i was thinking ok she's going to say oh it's u the one-mole (she calls me tt in hokkien). and she did. haha. very lucky for me tt it wasnt another one of those dishonest students who found my phone.

went to harbourfront for some scandinavian lunch. honlyn left while the rest of us (bena, weili, and I) went up Mt Faber. took quite a number of photos. wonderful photo-taking techniques we had haha. the view from the summit is quite decent. it was on the whole v fun, esp the descending part, when we basically followed some sort of a brick-path passing through dense vegetation. we deviated from it quite a few times though b4 reaching a carpark-like big plot of land - aha back to civilization. tt was a pleasant surprise :D

back at base camp i bought this 750ml bottle of drink from cheers and i tried to open it but my left hand got burnt instead (it still is). anyway, i was trying to finish it when i came back to bishan, so i was holding the cap in one hand and the open bottle in the other. and errr cos i dint have my bag with me and i looked rather bloated from drinking too much / tired from walking so much, i probably looked a bit drunk. just tt i stank of sweat instead of alcohol. haha.

6:39 p.m. - 2004-10-04



reading thru my sec 1/2 journals:

Goals for Sec 1 Terms 3&4: (let's see if i've achieved them in j2)
Plan time efficiently to avoid last-minute rush. (i havent changed much huh)
Get 5A1s for academic subjects (ok lar)
Be able to do a pull-up. (errr 5 pls!)
Be good friends to everyone. (err perhaps not)
Hand up my homework on time. (well it happened until last year)
Pass ABRSM Piano Practical with flying colours. (ok grade 8's over)
Get first in the finals of SYF. (hmm nvr happened. highest was 3rd)
Be able to do 30-40 situps in 30s. (can)
Understand japanese better and be able to speak in complete sentences. (if i still can't i've wasted the govmt's money)
To be responsible for what I do. (ok?)
To gain weight and grow taller. (hahahaha i was v short. must still grow laterally though)

hahaha hilarious:
"I think that we shorter people should face the podium and not the flags. Every time someone wins a prize, we can't see who it is. Sometimes, we don't even know what is happening. Worse still, it is something like echoing. If the people beside us clap, then we clap, if they don't then we don't. Isn't it very 'useless' of us?"

more hilarious stuff:
I finished my Commonwealth Essay today. I get this feeling (don't know how to describe it), I feel so happy.

some choir-related stuff:
(putting in the best for competitions)
Next week's Wednesday, Raffles Voices is having another competition. I have been practising for many days after school, so much so that I feel that it's a waste of time. Do they really need so much time from us?
- it was definitely worth it. the sec 1 syf was the best. everything has been on a decline since the beginning.
(commitment and priorities - choir vs other stuff)
A decision was made. I would go for choir. Well, Science Challenge was today. I am quite a 'good' supporter of Buckley, so I had some difficulty. Teachers and people at choir told me to go for choir since the concert is on the 26th. So? Can't I decide myself to prioritize the Science Challenge vs the choir practice? Well, well.

9:23 p.m. - 2004-10-03



mmmm. i've been sleeping so much lately... pig.

8:29 p.m. - 2004-10-03



now its back! overwhelming...

12:55 a.m. - 2004-10-03



would have been a rather happy day :)

met sing yong in the morning to visit teachers. oh well the whole ri had disappeared. children's day holiday huh. there were one or two blur souls providing us with company though. haha. anw reminisced abt the old times again. heh makes me sound so old. yeah went into classrooms, LT2 (where we had our weekly chinese bu3 ke4!) realized RI hasnt actually changed much since we went in.

so we left b4 we got caught by elangovan and mates. errr to PS for lunch at cafe cartel (was rather ok i guess wasnt fabulous though the set lunch). played at the arcade (the ice hockey was really fun i really enjoyed myself, was rather hopeless at the other game though lol) and played pool (i used to play rather ok - not well lar - but today was really disastrous).

then i took 174 to bena's hse. rather interesting bus trip. one plump middle-aged lady kept mumbling to herself abt how cumbersome it was to have so many shopping bags and how she should have taken a taxi (well. u culd have decided what u wanted to buy and what u wanted to take. nobody made u do anyth, esp the shopping.) and then there was this old lady in rags who had trouble opening this packet of what looked like biscuits but turned out to be some pills. and when she finally opened it after MUCH effort she just popped one into her mouth without any water. really pitiful but i culdnt do a thing cos the bus was really crowded n i was looking at her only thru the empty spaces between v indifferent commuters.

played a bit of badminton and x-box (as in really just a-bit) and had the bbq. errr well. unfortunately for me it was really nth fantastically fantastic lar. sorry tt i've to feel this way. dint feel particularly helpful either so in fact i felt nth thruout the bbq. din even notice the splendid turnout. only thing i was happy abt was seeing a diffraction grating at bena's hse.

sometimes i wish i culd change lester but tt's really none of my business. no i wasnt irritated by him at all today. but it's a kind of like if i told him sth it'd just make him a better person at least in my opinion. who am i to judge? heh pardon me its's 2 in the morning i'm going a bit cranky.

1:50 a.m. - 2004-10-02



ooooh. just called my p2 form teacher. she asked if i was tall and thin now haha. (proves tt she isnt bluffing she really does remember me lol). and she remembered quite a few others too:

Justin (haha believe it or not. suddenly i feel like i've been in contact with justin) - she remembers tt he could not give her the 3 times table. haha times table!!!! those were the times.
Thinesh! - err hm my memories failing me what did she say? haha
Alvin Heng - and his volcano project! hahah prob with aid from his mum huh.
Haogen - the bright spark with thick hair. haha. (how's he doing? - quite a lot of ny geps shud be in touch with him right... pls give me his contact or sth)
Hana - her parents shud be happy she's in RJ
Naim - my goodness Naim where on earth is he? she remembers he as the "chilli padi". lol

and err she asked is Mr Sitoe married? let's find out!!!! hahhaa

9:32 a.m. - 2004-10-01



the end of 4 months...

1:53 a.m. - 2004-10-01



somehow it doesnt feel too different before and after chem s. hahaha. my dad was like telling me yesterday 'ok b good! tml i'll allow u to watch tv'. err yar they've been forbidding me from watching cos i've been sleeping too late. a big boy without any self-discipline. pathetic *shakes head*. but anw there's really no end to anyth at all so there's nth much worth being v v happy abt.

new police story was rather nice... he's been doing films outside hk for quite long, but well finally he's back home. and it was rather impressive esp the last part when there was tt formation on the roof of the convention centre. i dun think many ppl will be able to appreciate it. cos u'll think oh just another building. but if it were the esplanade then it'll feel different right? same for me. get what i mean? nvm haha. it was where the handover ceremony was held btw.

ok. hopefully i'll do sth constructive tonight. hahah. for a change. :P

6:33 p.m. - 2004-09-30



i was doing random surfing of blogs and it was eye-opening again.

and believe it or not, justin, yes justin cheong from bpps, he was random surfing (blogspot) as well and wow of all things, stumbled upon my blog! my goodness the world is small. yeah and funny thing is just a few days back i had this urge to call him. anyway so apparently blogspot comments get sent to the user's email nowadays cos tt's how i found out, so i called him straight away. (can u imagine, after 9 whole years his phone number is still stuck in my head).

we were such good friends. heh. and then time passed and well we gradually lost contact... last time i met him was in sec 2 i think went to his hse at tt time. but tt was abt it. treasure ur friends man. i remember how i used to go to his hse to play his sega(?) games and also to cycle. and those were the times when the exchange rate (yar. transactions with my mum) was i think 5 assessment exercises for 1 hour of playtime. woohoo. dunt u just love reminiscing.

8:07 p.m. - 2004-09-29



interestingly, Augustus Caesar ("son" of Julius Caesar), Trajan (who has a column in Rome), Hadrian (who has a tomb in Rome) were all adopted sons. i.e. they were not the real sons of the previous emperor. cool huh

2:09 p.m. - 2004-09-29



nver ever ever detach urself from anyth or suppress anyth. it's dangerous.

1:46 p.m. - 2004-09-29



guess what i just woke up. and i slept at abt 1. so tt makes it 12 hours!!! longest sleep i've had in a long time.. pig.

12:58 p.m. - 2004-09-29



realized tt i actually see the SMU campus everyday from the farrer rd flyover while going to school.

anyway. my lunch was this $1.65 beef stick from new zealand. tasted ok i guess. and a $1.90 packet of gummy berries. and a $0.56 can of pineapple juice. bad choices, made me feel highly uncomfortable after tt (on the other hand tt made me sleep on the way back so maybe not too bad)

collapses into bed.

6:04 p.m. - 2004-09-28



sigh. my attitude is appalling haha. the paper wasnt all tt tough i guess (i wunt know right) i dunno why i din really feel like doing it. like just aiyah forget it no point trying kinda thing. no confidence in myself maybe. hm

went to the staff room and got some stuff back from ms lee and then she was telling me abt some bio qns and how stupid some ppls' answers were. and half the time i was actually thinking. hm. did i write tt? at least it's flattering tt she dint think i would write stupid answers. eh. tt impression of me would have been valid for j1 term 1 to 2 perhaps. haha. (and hm bing rui hasnt been coming for prelims)

was supposed to eat my own lunch and go home. well. went to cold storage jelita and looked at every single thing there. well. almost. the most expensive thing is the XO Hennessy 70ml ($224.30) followed by this really huge 1.5l bottle of some red wine ($197.75). realized tt wine bottles have this interesting conical indentation at the bottom: either there's some function to it (like to secure it on a rack or sth?) or it's just to make it look like there's more wine than there is... haha so did a search on the net. it's called a "punt" and err various functions claimed include:
1. strengthen bottle (esp for sparkling wines)
2. presence of a punt is equated to fine wine in the bottle
3. insertion of finger for support of bottle when pouring
4. feature resulting from glass blowing process
5. easier stacking during secondary fermentation

variety at cold storage is rather impressive (or maybe tt's an impression obtained from a comparison with ntucs). some interesting products: some iron-smooth thingie (spray onto clothes for easy ironing). machine dyes err basically u use ur washing machine to dye clothes. tubes of concentrated washing agents (for travel use). 1001 types of sugar. or tomato-related products. or pickled stuff like cherry peppers (really cute thingies). or mineral water for tt matter. (many different types of cheese too!)

$6.60 for a packet of 10 extra-large eggs (or so they claim) from new south wales. i think i'll wait for the seng choon ones... ard 1/3 the price? available on thursday apparently. hm i pity cold storage... they had so much stock!

ah yes another highly exciting find. errr. the confectioneries/pastries i brought home from italy. shucks haha. nvm now it means i can buy tt and still think of italy, cos italy was where i first saw it. ah not bad. i was trying to find sparkling mineral water to drink actually but they dun have small bottles of it. i'm quite sure it'll remind me of italy haha.

oh yes and i saw like i think at least 10 ang mohs with their long shopping lists and full shopping carts and they were all staring at me like what on earth is this student doing in the supermarket for so long (as long as them)? anyway poor cashiers haha.

4:19 p.m. - 2004-09-28



oh yes forgot to mention yesterday. i think the current SMU campus is rather nice a place. like compared to NTU or NUS (in decreasing appeal). oh wait NUS/NTU is going take it back right! but sigh medicine wunt move there lar.

6:00 p.m. - 2004-09-27



havent really felt v happy or v sad for a long while.
anyway. has anyth happened to u tt leaves u smiling for a while after the event has passed? like. let's say silly little things like u trying to avoid someone coming ur way so u move to a side but tt person also moves to the same side. will u get a smile on ur face? i will... and i like smiles like these. sometimes they can last like up to 15 seconds or so for me.
but i'm not in too good a mood now actually heh

10:43 p.m. - 2004-09-26



went for the gamelan orchestra concert in the botanical gardens but i figured tt impressions from last yr's syf is more impressive. [at e very least the choir was much more in rhythm as a whole - hm.. miss singing haha] so we started looking at dogs and ducks and stuff (and we culd still hear the gamelan rumbling in e background)
rather satisfied with things now BUT haha now shudnt i be mugging? heh.

9:30 p.m. - 2004-09-26



yay really quite happy tt i learnt abt the physics or maths behind harmony and why we've to tune down our 3rds and 6ths! cool... satisfied. :)

11:22 p.m. - 2004-09-25



made another template actually but decided oh well shall have this for a while. andy - bao rong - xiaohui - weili - hon lyn - yingheng (where am i? at the camera sigh) last year peirce reservoir hike sure hope it was fun... :)

4:53 p.m. - 2004-09-25



bio was ok but haha think i need to read qns more carefully...

badminton was fun. sorry if i looked like i was going to kill someone while hitting cos tts how i look like when i channel all my energy to playing. i realized i was staring at weili after i hit the shuttlecock onto the net (luckily for the hongkong team it fell onto the other side of the court). was really determined to score the point i guess haha. *bows and apologizes* haha

and den ate at crystal jade my goodness ate so so so much. (i had my first egg in a month i think) haha. and it cost only $11 sth. not bad. there was this indian couple who didnt like any of the food they served, what a pity.

k time to do sth tt i really want to do. havent decided what yet though.

7:37 p.m. - 2004-09-24



what links them together?
[Pampers, Pantene, Pringles] - Procter & Gamble
[Malboro, Kraft Cheese, Miracle Whip] - Altria Grp (Philip Morris)
[ABC, Disney, ESPN] - Walt Disney
[Mitsubishi (cars, electric, chemicals, etc), Nikon] - Mitsubishi
[Pepsi, Quaker Oats, Gatorade] - Pepsico
[The Washington Post, Newsweek, KAPLAN!] - The Washington Post
[KFC, Taco Bell, A&W, Long John Silver's, Pizza Hut] - Yum! Brands

and some acronyms/initialisms: what do they stand for?
IBM - International Business Machines
NATO - North Atlantic Treaty Organization
OPEC - Organization of Petroleum Exporting Countries
3M (scotch tape) - Minnesota Mining & Manufacturing Company
INTEL - INTegrated ELectronics
Nasdaq - National Association of Securities Dealers Automated Quotations
ABS - Anti-lock Braking Systems
Laser - Light Amplification by Stimulated Emission of Radiation
Radar - RAdio Detection And Ranging
ASCII - American Standard Code for Information Interchange
Scuba - Self-Contained Underwater Breathing Apparatus

tautology: PIN number, ATM machines, GUI interface, HIV virus, LCD display

3:45 p.m. - 2004-09-23



nice dream. me, sing yong, benedict, abintan, alvin liong [which is rather weird right i'm not like ultra close to most of them] were on the roads. so they were all riding on motorbikes while i was on this farming tractor which was really heavy and had high horsepower [incidentally 1hp = 745.69987158227022 W] and thus it could have really high momentum. and we basically just drove (?) everywhere until we nearly met with an accident with this ridiculous mercedes benz travelling on the wrong side of the road. i tried swerving away but well my tractor wasnt born to swerve so i just went straight on. sing yong had to respond last minute though haha.

anw at tt time my mum intended to wake me up but in my half-conscious state i tried telling her "dun try i'm having a nice dream". she culdnt really hear what i mumbled so i had to repeat myself. interestingly i was still in the dream on my first 2 repetitions. after tt i slowly came out of it. haha.

9:43 a.m. - 2004-09-23



hm. ageing is a worrying thing.

10:51 p.m. - 2004-09-22



i was so tired tt i fell asleep while eating my dinner. my mum was kind enough to let me stay asleep for half an hr b4 she woke me up to continue finishing my meal. (i've a feeling tt some stomach parietal cells allow the HCO3- to leak out under pressure haha cos there's like so much gas in my stomach after lying down)

anyway after the physics trauma everyone was in a pretty good mood (rather surprisingly) so we went to have lunch. then errr i went to the esplanade, photocopied some scores, appreciated some vincent leow multi-layer oil on canvas paintings. i quite like them actually (i'll recommend tt u take a look if u pass by there b4 the exhibition's gone - nxt week). and then yeah walked ard orchard b4 coming home. good day.

8:56 p.m. - 2004-09-22



v cool. thinesh suddenly msged me on msn to wish me gd luck for my prelims and then i found out tt he was krishna's and reggie's classmates!! wow! small world huh. sending him some photos haha.

9:32 p.m. - 2004-09-21



ah yes yest's chem. looked at my right hand. hm. NaNO3 --> NaNO2 on thermal decomposition!!!! lol.

anyway haha was struggling with S8 on the cab to school but oh well i guess i figured it out during the exam haha tt's y i was crawling. at least din really stop apart from the 2 toilet breaks.

mm and i got to walk a dog! how exciting!

8:38 p.m. - 2004-09-21



haha no this isnt good at all. just starting on S5... hm :S this's just like last week's physics... and still ing some more...

11:07 a.m. - 2004-09-21



oh god i'm so lost. what am i doing. i shud be doing stats!!!!!

11:14 p.m. - 2004-09-20



was just re-reading some of my entries and came to "feels like you could wish for peace on earth" and started singing. i just love seeing a part of a song (not the whole chunk of lyrics though) and then thinking of the tune.

anyway. music does quite a lot. it made me so happy!!!! just sang barber of seville. haha. music brings memories too. "just one of those thi-in-ings..." or "benedictus"

9:07 p.m. - 2004-09-20



chem's over! programmed a new algorithm into my brain:

1 Read question;
....(a) if calculation not required, proceed to step 2
....(b) if calculation required, proceed to step 3
2 Look at options. eliminate unlikely options.
....(a) if answer is obvious, shade the correct oval. =====> nxt qn
....(b) if still unsure, proceed to step 5
3 Determine number of steps, n, required in calculation
....(a) if n < 2, proceed to step 5
....(b) if n > 2 or n is not an integer, proceed to step 4
4 Draw a circle around the question number. =====> nxt qn
5 Attempt question for a max of 1 minute.
....(a) answer obtained, shade the correct oval (congrats!). =====> nxt qn
....(b) *scratch head* proceed to step 6
6 Here, the 4-sided die (found in the "exam esSenTialS" fun-pack) will come in useful.
....(a) proposed answer plausible. shade proposed oval. =====> nxt qn
....(b) answer proposed already eliminated. repeat step 6.

After 1 cycle is completed, apply the logarithm to circled questions in a 2nd cycle, though it is recommended to proceed to step 6 straight away if remaining time is limited.

1:20 p.m. - 2004-09-20



just washed the car. haha. and guess what my mum gave us some water by throwing it down in a plastic bag. hahahahaha.

5:34 p.m. - 2004-09-19



nice dream. first it was some 3f outing on a chartered bus, then was with my parents at an event where there were singers. so it's kinda like a buffet dinner but while i was queuing for my food we started singing a billy joel song followed immediately by thankyou for the music (some black singer behind me initiated it). and then after i got all the food ready and sat down at my table i woke up :( couldnt get a taste of the food :'(

9:39 a.m. - 2004-09-19



was blowing into my surviving test tubes and figured hey i can get two semitones bcos of end-correction. anyway. pls donate ur test-tubes to me if u dun need them. i wuld want to make an instrument... :) just like i did in sec 4.yup. so dun throw them away!

6:26 p.m. - 2004-09-18



what causes eyebags? one explanation: when u have insufficient rest ur autonomous nervous system kinda loses control a bit so vasodilation and constriction kinda go a bit haywire and there's too much venous blood below ur eyes (the skin there is extremely thin). another: u have some sort of chronic disease (esp when they're there even if u rest well. go see a doctor).

4:37 p.m. - 2004-09-18



exciting day. began with the waking up of zombie 1 (me) realizing he has to memorize what he summarized last night. and zombie 2 (andy) was nowhere to be seen but luckily he reached the hall just in time b4 the paper started.

i can consider today's paper finished though i spent a bit too much time on the first 10 marks of e essay. haha. n i think this's e first paper tt i din have to go to the toilet halfway.

went to retrieve my belongings from my dear locker and found tt some ppl had decided to seal the door. at least they were kind enough to provide me with another opening: the roof. :) this is like daily amusement, i just wonder how much worse it can get.

then went cycling with weili to the cbd (through ecp), took a look at the art museum, went to nicoll highway (the collapse worksite), and then home. quite burnt on my arms and hands. just 3 hrs i think? hm.

exciting enough. but i think i need some sleeeeeeeeeeep of at least 3 hrs.

5:17 p.m. - 2004-09-17



good stuff from here:

Bacteria are simple, colourless, onecelled plants that use soluble food and are capable of self reproduction without sunlight.


10:33 p.m. - 2004-09-16



physics was, worse than expected. hahahaha. i figured tt my glycogenolysis pathway isnt really working or maybe it's my adrenal glands. no stress => no extra energy / sweating even though i have like 5 minutes left and like 20 marks left. hahahahhaa. haha. actually i think it's just an attitude problem. had almost 17? hours to mug but din finish, not bcos of lack of time but bcos i culdnt be bothered. (?!???)

probably cos i feel tt studying wunt help. heh.

and there's gonna be at least another cycle of tt :(

quite tired also. still.

5:26 p.m. - 2004-09-16



so apparently 3 days is the limit. need rest. tonight was quite slack. shall sleep i think. need it.

10:32 p.m. - 2004-09-15



abt time for me to recall this definition of success: maximizing ur potential, achieving what u're capable of.

5:31 p.m. - 2004-09-15



(met dr yap yest he looked pretty cheerful) mm pretty good a day. the bio paper itself aside (at least i was close to finishing my essay), i went to seng kang to pay library fines, found conrad there.

read abt michaelangelo and the sistine chapel. it is such a shame tt when i went there i knew nth abt it and was in fact, at that time, only thinking tt i've had enough of looking at colourful ceilings (partially also cos suzanne explained to us using tt really old poster which well din exactly appeal to me). so nvm now at least i can appreciate it more. too late.

'too late'. applies to lots of things heh. hai. :( :)

anyway so i took 156 back to bishan [miracle: the bus came the moment i reached the interchange] where i met ouyang hong yue (sec 4 now, was in my group in sec 1 gep camp) as well as joel ng. feels rather nice seeing ppl u havent seen for a long time and they recognize u even though u were never close to them.

believe it or not, when i came home my mum told me she just went to seng kang as well. since when did bishan dwellers go to compass point? haha

oh yes ray v kindly gave me a stack of solutions for some physics s qns today.

may there be more pleasant surprises in the near future.

3:41 p.m. - 2004-09-15



just finished double e (evolution/ecology) now proceeding on to human biology. mm.

12:30 a.m. - 2004-09-15



err actually i've abt at most 5 left. hm. really really am starting now.

lazy bum.

7:52 p.m. - 2004-09-14



time's extremely precious. i've 7 to 8 hours today. bio. yes can do it. heh.

anyway my locker has been destroyed shifeng and i now share a locker of capacity large enough to store a hockey stick? haha.

5:28 p.m. - 2004-09-14



gd morning! haha lots to mug :D

7:49 a.m. - 2004-09-14



2 things learnt from today:
flexibility is important (looking at a hint i gave myself but not being able to use it) - [wait, how do u learn to be flexible?!]
small angle approximation works only in radians. ok lar everyone knows but i forgot so i kept worrying tt i got it wrong (i think i still made some careless mistake anyway)

went to cedele for lunch in the end cos mum din cook. service was good. they actually increased the brightness of the light for me :)

v confused by electrochem now. just one of those things tt the whole world can get but not me.

oh yes did i mention. my locker kissed the ground -again-. i still have test-tubes inside yes i do. hm. "BeWARE! Pls check tt u have @ least SGD 3.50 in ur wallet b4 tying ur net onto this lock. Thankyou for your cooperation."

5:09 p.m. - 2004-09-13



haha i think i'm losing steam (i've so little steam huh). must be the sudden release in pressure (chionging math). adiabatic expansion. temperature lowered. no more steam generated. hm.

ok go hk go! one subject down!

12:42 p.m. - 2004-09-12



go hk go! some more chapters to go b4 finishing math! (and the other subjects?)

kong4 qian2 (jue2 hou4 - hopefully)

4:12 p.m. - 2004-09-11



appalling! haha. 2 days left..

8:49 a.m. - 2004-09-11



feeling at peace, hoping that the world will be peaceful, things will go smoothly, everything will be fine.

world peace.

"feels like you could wish, for peace on earth. and all at once it will come, some day"

11:55 p.m. - 2004-09-10



new plan. 3 chapters per hour. yeah. 15+15+15=45? then 15 min break! hahaHA

(imagine. agri biotech, food biotech, med biotech in an hr. *shudders*)

11:54 a.m. - 2004-09-10



it's such a pity tt the parachutes failed to be deployed. :( - e genesis mission

5:06 p.m. - 2004-09-09



weird dream last night. the choir was at a pretty big supermarket at the ground floor of a hotel. i went in to make sure everyone had left the supermarket (sth like when i walk up and down the aisle to check if ppl left their belongings on the bus), but i was scolded for taking so long. everyone headed towards the coach, but my luggage was still in my room, so i had to go up to the 8th floor. mr toh told me to hurry up but the lift took v long cos it kinda hovers (not suspended by any cable) and it takes time to stabilize. -end- haha

11:31 a.m. - 2004-09-08



hm so my mum's comment on my soup "not too bad..." (yay! haha)

mm. kinda started studying today. jia you!

9:59 p.m. - 2004-09-07



what a dinner. haha. (status: no food poisoning yet) salmon ($3 worth), 1 container of soup, 1 bowl of rice with chinese sausage and 1 bag of french peas. mmhm tt's right. then after tt washed all the stuff from today and yesterday (now's already 10.48), swept the floor (it's impossibly dirty).

it's kinda like studying overseas. this is vocational training for the Bachelor of Arts (Household Management). it's gonna be my first degree.

i do love this life actually. but as long as i'm a student, i'm gonna appreciate what my mum does for us every day.. :) (actually at times like these i feel like having more than 24 hrs a day)

9:28 p.m. - 2004-09-06



living on soup and rice today. haha.

8:13 p.m. - 2004-09-06



hm... applying for unis really consume so much time!!!! my goodness. this morning i was with andy who kindly helped me pay for my application fees first (parents not here marh and all they left me with is this thick stack of $2 and $5 notes the post office will think i'm stealing right...) and this afternoon yanjie. spent so much time trying to get everything right. mm. and this is just one uni. yes j1s pls do prepare early for prelims so tt at this time u can think abt unis.

but anyhow, yay!!! finished the application at last!

4:04 p.m. - 2004-09-06



yup so tonight i fried rice and err boiled carrot-celery-tomato-peanut-meat soup. heh. no food poisoning -yet-. what happened to the studies? hm..

9:28 p.m. - 2004-09-05



use the navigation bar on blogspot blogs to read random blogs.

first discovery: the folks at blogspot probably know singapore and the life of its citizens very well. (almost 4 in 7 blogs are singaporean-owned)

second discovery: singlish IS quite common among singaporeans bloggers who usu have the habit of hAViNg cApiTaL LeTteRs eVerYwheRe

third discovery: sampling size needs to be big for results to be reliable. i actually stumbled upon the blog of a rj student (2S03 sth) cos she was complaining abt her physics prac on friday and chem prac on monday. haha.

11:04 p.m. - 2004-09-04



was playing 'piano man' and it went it's 9 o clock on a saturday. hm.

then i called my piano teacher to wish her a happy teacher's day and talked a bit abt everyth. haha. her mum's fine. good. she still doesnt know how to use the comp but i think she thinks tt the internet is quite powerful. her impression of the internet is somewhat like our impression of quantum mechanics.

a sample of her humour: (cos there was this bird tt kept waking my mum up at ard 5 in the morning with this really irritating noise it makes) maybe it has gotten the flu.

haha right. time to go mug. - again - (what again? haha)

9:53 p.m. - 2004-09-04



just went out to thai express to eat pineapple fried rice + coconut ice cream. ate 2 prawns. and err i'm allergic to seafood (maybe no more cos i cant feel any itch yay!) and the haze is terrible. but living alone at home is fun fun fun. the tv wunt be on (actually it's cos i'm too lazy to switch it on just like how i'm too lazy to open all my windows) and i have the whole hse to myself. oooh. and guess what tml i shall attempt to boil soup and have sth like grilled salmon for lunch. i'm so looking forward to going overseas to study man.

everyone. GO GO GO!!!! yay!

9:02 p.m. - 2004-09-04



i cooked today! haha some leftovers and some fresh peas. and err mee. edible :)

tonight i shall attempt salmon

2:53 p.m. - 2004-09-04



bio prac. well at least i finished on the last minute haha. finally :):) next time i must beat the clock (esp for math-related stuff). everyone jia you!

10:52 p.m. - 2004-09-03



gp haha not too bad considered i didnt really study (but then again really how do u study for gp??). physics design. haha. what i must work on: TIME MANAGEMENT!

anw. this morning i was v clumsy. slipped and kinda slided down the stairs, injured my right knee a bit (not scratch/bruise, more of just(?) taking the impact so tt i didnt have to land on my butt) now i cant bend my knee. worse than an old man. sigh

9:19 p.m. - 2004-09-02



it's appalling i know but haha i seem as prepared for gp now as i was b4 italy trip. says lots huh.

anw my room is clean! finally. and my personal statement is done! (shall let mr purvis read it first b4 i get too happy)

so i did achieve sth today. but haha gp i'll tackle u after i bathe :S

11:32 p.m. - 2004-09-01



so chem prac was another disaster but tt comes as no surprise really i've always been bad at it. work faster!!!!

anw cos i'm sick -again- i went to the clinic (thanks for coming along) and this time i noticed quite a lot of interesting stuff at the pharmacy. 1. slow-release vitamin c (how does it work? hm) 2. dried Lactobacillus acidophilus in capsules 3. maltodextrin and starch for food thickening 4. collagen and vit c combo (i suppose after the collagen is hydrolysed u still have ur glycine, (hydroxy)proline, (hydroxy)lysine, but then in tt case u dun really need ur vit c any more? hm.)

10:00 a.m. - 2004-08-31



has anyone wondered why there's pepsi twist (with lemon) and vanilla coke? simple ans: it's simply changing the proportion of the original constituents.

interestingly. "public holiday" is also known as: "bank holiday" in the UK and "federal holiday" in the US

9:38 p.m. - 2004-08-29



just a reminder to everyone... do be careful of the emails with 21kb attachments. interestingly it shows u whom you have connections with. so far i have them coming from ppl in my junior class, choir (ri/rj), etc. i've nver tried what it actually does though. maybe it's harmless haha but it's spam all the same

10:32 a.m. - 2004-08-29



haha i just looked at all my august entries. quite a lot has happened actually, but it's time for studies really. i cant believe it myself. i have not started. my goodness.

if there's one bad habit tt i must get rid of, it has to be the last-minute attitude tt i have (which usually comes with/results from complacency). for any event/appointment, i either reach just in time or am late for up to 5 minutes. 5 minutes might not be a long period of time no doubt, but exams dunt wait for u. ppl can forgive me if i'm late for an appointment but who will forgive me for needing another 5 days to finish studying when the exam is tml? my calculations ought not be so precise, or at e very least, i have to learn to include the uncertainties of life in my calculations. (e.g. this prelims i told myself i can finish each subject in 3 days which explains why i've yet to start proper).

10:01 p.m. - 2004-08-28



phys prac was, err, exciting. very interesting results but guess what i managed to stay calm and composed. proud of myself for being able to do that :) just need to apply my theory more during physics pracs...

(met zijing and jing jing) then played badminton for the whole afternoon without eating lunch, so both my thighs died on the way to the mrt station and i desperately tried to continue walking (had to squat once i reached the platform). one of those times when i really just want to die (the other example: when i really wanted to puke on the mrt at dhoby ghaut). hm what if in the future hk has to give birth to his child as a surrogate father. sounds painful. ouch.

after tt went to the esplanade in an attempt to appreciate dances but well i prob din appreciate it as well as bena/sang did. fell asleep at some parts haha and whenever i did i would dream of hitting a short return (obviously i played badminton for too long a period of time).

nth much for the scholarship talks/seminars so for all those who din bother to go, it was a good choice on ur part.

and like it or not i've no time left so prelims here i come!

6:58 p.m. - 2004-08-28



last day of sch yeah. felt kinda sad when mrs lim left just like tt. maternity leave for her. sigh. she did teach us after all, and there wanst even a proper farewell. heh. mmhm it's gone one big loop. remember the first day when we saw our class our tutors for the first time and now it's the last official day. mmhm. things have started getting into my memory already: was trying to look for this particular set of physics notes, only to realize tt i last saw it as part of o lvl preps.

teachers' day is next week, i just hope everyone can go to school at least. mmhm.

10:41 p.m. - 2004-08-26



gd day indeed. mr khoo sang for us!!! gp lesson in the band room! how very khoo! and then mrs lim actually skipped a question! went off with bena to novena to mug at cedele. pretty reasonable food for the price, and best of all it was such a nice place to mug at! the area is small yet there's just enough space, it's kinda enclosed yet you can see the rest of the world going on with their business outside. it's esp interesting to see expressions on ppls' faces when they come in to see the different types of bread. it sure is a good break after a period of brain usage. (some sort of unique entertainment if i may say)

anyway. nver be stressed. unless u really daydream there's no way u are not making productive use of ur time. anybody who has been feeling guilty of "wasting time", dunt! for it doesnt help a single bit.

8:53 p.m. - 2004-08-25



yest was the rally. mmhm. time passes v slowly nowadays actually. anw, none of the ministers actually listened to us much. only person whose face showed a smile when we sang barber was chief justice yong! nvm, good enough :) haha then dinner time! it was v v fun yeah was quite high actually. and tt kinda dragged on till today when we (my class) din have bio prac or civics so we played badminton for quite a long while. yup. and then went to the esplanade library to photocopy some scores. and then here i am at home, trying to do some research on uk unis. yup. :)

9:22 p.m. - 2004-08-23



k time to declare an emergency. after tml :) meanwhile. stay stress-free...

11:42 p.m. - 2004-08-21



pretty eye-opening. i'm really v stuck in the raffles circle of ppl. pathetic, hk, pathetic. some person came to my blog by searching using the keywords "more malays live in hdb" so i traced back to a few more singaporean blogs. one's a teacher, another actually went ard singapore on national day on the mrt singing national songs. wow. exciting haha. this other guy who has a tuition centre.

ok lar this isnt like my first time. but it's v easy for me to forget tt i'm really just meeting one type of singaporean throughout my ri/rj life no matter how unique each person may seem.

anyway. interesting idea raised by one of the websites. why is there forced integration of the races in each town (and even blocks)?

7:52 p.m. - 2004-08-21



mm mixed feelings. more sad now though. ms low came in this morning to tell us tt if li jia wei gets into the finals we will not sing tml. it's kinda my last chance singing so hm, and we've put in some effort for it after all. anw after prac we went to swensens and waited for the results of the match. when she lost by the narrow margin, we were all in a state of speechlessness. oh well. oh well. v interesting to observe each person's reactions... hai

7:10 p.m. - 2004-08-21



depressing day kinda actually but heh nvm it's good tt i wake up =) i think i'm a pretty petty person actually. hm. quite worried abt chem. prac esp. yup so i'll work hard! =)

anyway watched 3 table tennis matches tonight. (errr i thought i said i'll work hard) wang nan's smiles and her resilience, jia wei's rare facial expressions and her cool confidence (ok maybe u cant really tell actually), the fighting spirit of the korean team (4th) [which perhaps deserved the medal as much as the chinese team] ok haha nvm i'm in no position to comment on sport-related stuff

mmhm and today was the last friday ever... no more 5 tutorial blocks. no more chem prac. simply unbelievable... 2 years. over.

but talking to xuxu on the bus-trip back really did brighten up my day a bit, knowing more abt her and her life and her future. sounds really v exciting =)

8:31 p.m. - 2004-08-20



so yest i had a weird dream featuring quite a lot of ppl. and i stayed back in school after choir to do work. talked to the stall 2 auntie for a while. quite quiet did a bit of math with reginald. not too bad =)

today? physics prac was ok, made all sorts of mistakes but still kinda finished. =) and then there was the rehearsal at the UCC. still learning my part haha. the singing wasnt all tt bad. heh. hope all goes well on the day itself.

9:07 p.m. - 2004-08-19



vomitted in the end after struggling for so long. very sour. hm. the doctor thought i was feigning illness. oh well. said tt it was just cos of anxiety. heh. might as well not visit doctors from now on, really.

really terrible. nearly vomitted on the way to clementi polyclinic (outside ntuc), and nearly vomitted again on the train nearing dhoby ghaut with feng lin on my left and this lady studying from a jap text on my right. distracted myself by wondering whether i shud initiate a conversation with the lady (missing jap now) but the longer i took to decide the more awkward it'll be so i decided not to in the end but it spared me from vomitting at least.

ah yes had 2.4 after which i drank a can of 100 plus in a gulp. (might have caused the vomitting) pretty fast running :) 9.55, considering my fitness lvl now.

10:20 p.m. - 2004-08-17



was just watching channel 8 news. RI through-train: video of RI students. for a moment i thought, hm tt guy looks surprisingly like seng tat. hmm. his brother? i stared harder. wait, mohan is beside him!!! hahahaha. j3 liao leh!!

10:23 p.m. - 2004-08-16



about time to wake up haha. 28 days left. yup time to start. no, not tooo late yet. hahaHA.

11:00 p.m. - 2004-08-15



monopoly is actually quite an interesting game. more than just what we think it is. a lousy old board game? not exactly. think of the math and tactics behind it...

10:39 p.m. - 2004-08-14



saw mr thia yest. 3 years isnt a short period of time. but without hesitation he went "of course i remember u. sapporo, hokkaido." the older you get, the better your memory. (or maybe just cos i was too naughty on the trip)

survived 2 days without cash. conditioned me to look out for any Macdonald's outlets (currently the only place accepting ez-link payment) when i open my empty wallet. and when ezlink stored value runs low, had to learn to bear with my thirst/hunger so that at least there is enough money for me to get home. was almost desperate enough to get a cup of water from one of the fastfood restaurants but decided against embarrassing myself. heh. living without money is hard. experience it for yourself. *shudders* nver again...

9:33 p.m. - 2004-08-14



quite some training for pull-ups, then floorball: (scored a goal!!! for once. haha). lessons were pretty boring as usual. after school? badminton! v nice too. and then watched asian youth orchestra at the esplanade. rather boring actually.

11:45 p.m. - 2004-08-13



had a gd chat with grace at the cc. =) thanks for being tt friend whom i can be totally comfortable with. [btw sg's really small. met ms mani (RI librarian) with her kid. heh think she recognized my badge and not my face but haha quite interesting to lip-read across the glass window(?) of the cafe.]

anw today i ate so much again! errr. subway, topless 5 (again). hm pretty full. tml. badminton! =)

8:51 p.m. - 2004-08-12



haha i see ppl studying for tests 2 days b4 the actual day. "wow! tt's early!" appalling.

11:45 p.m. - 2004-08-11



superb day. lessons were fine (mr lim came in for physics! haha). bio test was i guess, passable (who knows huh). i gave my full attention to mr khoo despite distractions south-west of me (until he decided to half the double period to a single one. by the time he re-settled down i was partially gone). thought of mr ho again during math.

after tt played table tennis. test of stamina heh. haha. then went for choir! enjoyed singing once again. (ms lee gave me an orange haha thanks) then had my topless 5!! haha finally. actually it's not all tt fantastic. when it comes in such a generous serving i dunno if i want to go for another one again. yar so it's like kinda sad. marketing tactics can backfire. the 39 scoops challenge: think the participants wunt exactly want any more ice cream in a while.

8:17 p.m. - 2004-08-11



nice mugging day. south bridge road actually branches into 3 roads at its southern end. very nice, cos it's just so non-singapore (actually apparently to hk, anyth non-modern, non-orderly is non-singapore). interestingly, met some band ppl at taka seoul garden. cant help but start thinking, what if i had been tt close to chorale ppl. not tt i can do anyth abt it of cos but i look at them and i think, what a nice mix.

recently i've been so detached from my emotions tt it's perhaps getting out of hand. i dun feel much any more. sadness is ephemeral. happiness is also ephemeral, bcos i fear depression after the happiness. how foolish. i've bcum less and less human.

nobody can help me? forget it. study then.

9:07 p.m. - 2004-08-10



gp's what's killing me. not just bcos of the subject itself but also because it's this really huge activation energy impeding me from doing revision for other subjects. the essay, the conclusions, the compres.

so i shall do them now. overall it should be an exothermic reaction. no worries.

4:28 p.m. - 2004-08-09



nice to put yourself into the really huge crowd and soak in the atmosphere. exciting to sit on the road divider as well! errr apart from tt. nth much. haha non-impressive fireworks lasted for i think less than 5 minutes?!

10:10 p.m. - 2004-08-08



nice date. haha. just sent cousins off, had to wake up like at 5.30. passed by many blocks of flats, whose inhabitants were still sound asleep, along the way. yet the airport was such a contrast: there were so many ppl at the check-in counters... went to the airport hoping to reminisce abt any trip at all. somehow it didnt work. hm.

shall get back to sleep.

7:56 a.m. - 2004-08-08



did tonnes today. morning badminton, afternoon crystal jade la mian, then took a look at the "tapestry of the nation" at hdb hub. swam 30 laps (havent swum for a year at least), and played table tennis. went to bkt panjang plaza, nice to see it changing (capitaland's doing quite well in its shopping mall managing).

2 thoughts.

1st. cousins leaving tml. feel partially sad. cos the hse will be quiet again (save for my parents arguing bet themselves or with me). things will get more serious and my parents will focus their attention on me and trust me less. they'll scold me (now they realize how mature and grown up i am in comparison. 6 teenage years really does a lot to a person. but after my cousins r gone, there will be nobody to compare with). but ok to be fair my cousins did bring a certain amt of joy, though really they ought to learn to mature and be more sensible.

2nd. it's v nice when u see lyrics appearing as a short quote (e.g. as someone's nick) and it actually makes u sing. v powerful in my opinion.

11:04 p.m. - 2004-08-07



civics breakfast quite fun. took a lift from christine (talked to her for quite a while, was pretty nice), dropped off at sixth avenue and actually met shihao at the bus stop! talked quite a bit as well.

national day celebrations was rather fun. pity i din get to sing with the choir. but talking to sang was fine, watching the class play was fun too. and err rubbing balloons together for hair-standing experiences. went to holland v after tt for lunch, then walked to orchard (went into the british council forgetting tt i wanted to get a UCAS form, remembered only when i reached tanglin mall) watched the village (quite a nice show, fits our gp syllabus now) at cine, then went for dinner with bena at mushroom pot (spent more than i could pay, but the food was pretty good). sent home, v enjoyable. :)

a warm welcome to all anonymous readers out there. yes, you!

12:46 a.m. - 2004-08-07



had this really interesting dream this morning. was in this building (somewhat like hogwarts: one flight of steps missing, and u have to climb outside the building, apparently an aptitude test too see if u will make a good engineer) which i've visited b4 actually. on the 2nd floor u have these rooms which have the signs phy, chem, bio o training rooms on their doors. and err so i met prof shirley lim. smiled at her she took some time to recognize me. then somehow shioya sensei appeared in the room, which expanded to become sth like the MOELC staff room. looking forward to a good dream this time.

anyway. funny things happening these few days.
ind/env biotech lecture. i kept dozing off and ms teh said "thankyou hong king" after she asked who was sleeping and i sat up straight.
gp lesson. mr khoo asks bing rui, who was obviously not in the ts (well physically yes i guess), a qn. bing rui requests mr khoo to repeat his last statement. mr khoo's reply: what do you think?
there was some bird droppings on a canteen bench and evelyn sat on it. a chorus of "shit!" follows.

12:20 a.m. - 2004-08-04



yesterday. went to eat at sizzler's then sungei buloh after tt. fantastic day. got caught in the rain though haha. well. currently still dun exactly the presence of my cousins very much, but i guess i'm fine with it haha.

today? ate a lot heh. very full... other than tt. pretty fine.

8:38 p.m. - 2004-08-02



was a good day :)

fine college day was boring, so was the straits time thingie. but met ppl. bavani pillai (still the same reaction as last year. "bavani!" "hongking!" haha), agnes (at carrefour), sarah (in rj). and haha xizhen was like "err u're hong king right". refreshing to see new ppl i guess...

the walk up the ECP bridge was good. saw fireworks, had tonnes of fun. i mean, it's really not anyth big, we din do much, but it was gd company i guess and it's been a long time since we went out like tt with so many ppl? ok fine not tt many but yar still. i guess the last time the 4 of us went out together was disney on ice which was like 1 common test ago. (this time with yh/br as well. tt's gd too). br's quite funny haha. induced a scream in me when we saw bats flying out from under the bridge :) was ulu enough, and novel enough to be fun i guess...

err. i'm kinda having a mini-tummyache now. i suspect 1. the grapes were not washed properly (err yar i wun expect them to be considering the amt of water we had) 2. i ate some of the dust on ECP (used tissue to wipe the railing to check how dirty it was, so i saved my white uniform from getting dirty but heh forgetfully used it to wipe my mouth after tt) 3. sth wrong with my cup and the apple-aloevera juice (too much dissolved gases from our vigorous shaking in an attempt to distribute the aloe vera evenly) 4. the sushi which kinda had some roe on it (i do believe ms lee said microbes proliferate in raw food left in the warmth of our room temp for too long - err. well i hope i knew tt b4 she said it haha.) 5. the cut watermelon (tasted slightly weird) 6. the ginger milk pudding (maybe too much for my lousy stomach) ... oh btw cedele really has great cookies...

2:38 a.m. - 2004-08-01



looked at RV website. feel very old. very. looking at the members page. soon enough i'll know nobody from the choir. there was a list of achievements. looked at it. tt's history. soon enough the rj hk will be history also. hmmm.

and it's not going to be easy for all j2s for the next month or so at least. everyone hang in there!

9:38 p.m. - 2004-07-29



hm yeah so i've changed. to become more normal. how v exciting.

nvm haha concentrate more.

8:47 p.m. - 2004-07-29



still v tired. somehow. but fidgetted throughout today's lessons, and haha actually starting to kinda enjoy soccer, esp when classmates are really rather supportive when i touch the ball properly.

ah yes. just realized tt i borrowed 2 books from NLB at seng kang some weeks ago, and they are overdue by 9 days. unbelievable.

9:45 p.m. - 2004-07-27



school. felt slow. since when did i walk so slowly and respond so softly? felt like my brain din want to control my body, which therefore just went on at its steady but terribly slow pace. did my bio prac v slowly. then forgot abt gp consultation during break. haha sigh blur.

anyway. 11.7km in all.

[outram rd]
went to get my teeth polished at sch dental centre (sgh), (unfortunately apparently according to the dentist the stains will come back. even brushing wunt help?!).
[kim seng rd]
then headed for great world city, on the way helping this disabled guy get a cab. bought a wonderful cookie at cedele cafe, then ate lunch at yoshinoya before heading off north.
[paterson (hill) rd]
saw this non-singapore style apartment (somewhat like what i saw in canada) in the drizzle - felt like a dream, then saw this other apartment with full height glass windows for all rooms (again another feel, feels like some future thing). went through borders
[scotts rd]
went into that cd shop, took a tour inside DFS galleria. all v interesting. eye-opening. esp DFS galleria. all the branded goods under one roof. much more compact than takashimaya. felt like a tourist also cos there were all sorts of singapore souvenirs haha.
[newton circus]
was kinda hard to cross cos there wasnt any traffic light and i was too lazy to move to where there was a crossing so i just waited for my eyes and brain to create a green-man signal for myself.
[thomson rd]
went into thomson medical centre delifrance for a chocolate eclair, then got a glimpse of the automatic basement carpark system (with lift) finallly (i read abt it years ago). went through far east flora, v nice to see all sorts of plants (+ they're not v ex actually apart from the orchids of course).
[bishan rd]
went to ntuc to buy what my mum wanted to cook for dinner. then home sweet home!!! tired.

6:03 p.m. - 2004-07-26



simply wonderful food today. afternoon crystal jade. ooooh. then table tennis. ate the ball twice (dad aimed and i err opened my mouth) - the game was quite good overall we were pretty energetic. then dinner 5 stars chicken rice, so much variety (errr this sounds like a paradox huh).

very full (servings all generous). very happy. ooooh.

9:03 p.m. - 2004-07-25



miss choir a lot. a lot a lot. u dun realize it until u go for a practice and sing. aaaahhhh. to think tt i'll nver have tt experience again. it's different already. sigh. sigh. sigh.


on a separate note, feel glad tt small little things can improve my mood disproportionately. keeps me happy and satisfied with life to continue moving on.

9:24 p.m. - 2004-07-24



if B were a proper subset of A, then should B be known as A? (consider the case for B'nA > BnA). theoretically no, but in practice, apparently possible. a bit misleading isnt it?

probably doesnt harm much, but it doesnt harm to be aware of such situations either.

shucks. the audit culture.

11:45 p.m. - 2004-07-23



so the week has more or less ended. pretty cool. kept to my promise indeed. ha ha. just an overview:

first time playing soccer in ages, and i think i kinda play better than b4. tt's gd news! haha. though i still have much to learn. most of the time when i get the chance to touch the ball i get rather excited and bcos i want to make sure tt i get to touch it, i dun ever look up to see who to pass the ball to. so usu the ball gets into the opponents' possession. feeling guilty, i'll become more aggressive to try and get the ball back, at a success rate of abt 25%. but hey i appreciate the fact tt my classmates are willing to let me try heh. thanks!

wednesday, air force computerized test. psychomotor tests basically. haha. pretty fun. got kinda boring though when they gave tt personality test (same as the psc one). thursday, mock medicine interview. i dun suppose an actual interview would be so simple, but it is still a good time to start realizing tt uni edu is indeed going to start soon for us. v stressful to see all these talks and fairs and whatever-nots. wonder how many ppl feel lost...

finally today, gp was actually fun (kinda nice getting confused, way better than writing intros/conclusions anyway), math tutorial got me psyched up (honlyn:???? haha cos i was trying to catch up what) for chem prac which was another mad rush. fun though. then accompanied xuxu to buy her usb thumbdrive at sim lim and to my surprise saw feng run. haha.

quite a productive week after all. a better week next week? yup it sure will be. :)

though hopefully it doesnt have to be as tiring. on wednesday i was typing with eyes closed, head on table. haha.

9:45 p.m. - 2004-07-23



taking a hiatus from blogging of at least 3 days. remember. i've bcum more determined nowadays. :)

11:33 p.m. - 2004-07-19



nice day. slack day. interesting day. bio prac: prevented the lab from being burnt down (haha no lar it'd nver have gotten so big) by shouting at the fire. why so alert arh. must be cos i've been watching the hk series "flaming heart 2" which has firefighting as its theme. like u know "xing shi zhen ji dang an" revolves ard the hk police, this one is abt the fire department lar. haha. din know watching tv could be useful.

mm. bio. pretty prety happy i suppose. i'm worried though tt the cambridge markers cant see my points as well. not as though they are v embedded i mean hk doesnt really write grandmother stories otherwise he wunt ever have to count the number of words in his gp essay every now and then to make sure the word count is like above 500.

yup. and had high tea (which was lunch actually) at causeway point. not bad! :)

6:47 p.m. - 2004-07-19



well. i realized tt my life needs to be spiced up. just now i met my mum's friend and her son and it got me this hyper *tries to type more to show tt he's hyper*.

as in really. and it's not as though they said sth inspirational. it's just tt they are hong kongers, and they're really exciting. compared to the (no offence, but really) boring singaporeans. or maybe it's just ppl whom i'm with, those whom i know in rjc, v nice no doubt (and i mean it ppl ARE nice, thanks everyone for being so nice all the time), but sometimes nice = boring. errr. as in. sometimes when u insult ppl and u laugh it off it's quite exciting. ok maybe it's just 3f. (e.g. compared to 3c's andrew. oh no going to get bashed up *runs away*)

ah obviously i'm v hyper. for no reason haha.

and actually on second thoughts, lessons are getting pretty boring too. not intellectually stimulating enough. and no more chorale so less musical satisfaction. no more routine pls!!!! (err and i havent even settled into the routine yet) nonetheless i need stimulation. any electric chairs on sale?

9:15 p.m. - 2004-07-18



was eating twa tow yesterday. haha saw the style, the siphon, everyth. easier to dissect cooked huh :P. but anw was just thinking why do ppl bother to eat shellfish when the bulk of it is the digestive system.

12:26 p.m. - 2004-07-18



haha so ee sang just called me to ask me wake her up, and i was sleeping. so the phone call had twice the original intended productivity haha.

9:40 a.m. - 2004-07-18



2004 ibo sg: 2 gold 2 silver. ah imagine if i were part of tt. heh. the chance is nver going to come again of course. but at least. this closes the entire chapter. and i'm happy for them and sad for myself. period.

1 thing down, 3 more things left. common test 2 (bio results, + percentiles), rome (yes unbelievable but i'm still kinda stuck in it), chorale (farewell ends all? perhaps not)

ah then i can focus on my studies totally. will tt day ever come?

12:52 a.m. - 2004-07-18



maybe i'll teach. was feeling uncomfortable at the beginning of e tea session. but it was nice to meet + talk to: kar seng (incredibly tall), shu-lin, cheuk ka.

12:19 a.m. - 2004-07-18



yeah it's abt time to start a new page. anyway in case u were wondering what happened to tt italian mountain, well i accidentally deleted the previous template and i dunt like reproducing the same thing so yup this is it. the photos up there were not taken for the blog design. they were part of my attempts to get a photo to submit to the ica for a new passport. haha :P

anyway it's rather appalling. i've put on some 3kg since i came back from italy (no dun worry i'm not like overly concerned abt my weight it's just tt i recall my weight has been stagnant at 52.5kg for the past year or so. perhaps recently i removed a parasite from my stomach or sth. or ingested some microbes with cellulase. who knows)

10:55 p.m. - 2004-07-16


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